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reply posted on 12-12-2008 @ 06:42 AM by s0ndernet

Originally posted by survival
I feel that meditation and the binaural activity, along with physical activeness if really giving me some sort of edge.. But i only want it to happen quicker. Please Tell me your thoughts. Thank you.

The description of your experiences with research/literature/audio/diet/exercise almost identically match my recent life changes which started 1 year ago, at the same age.

I will add i have a nearly identical body structure and build as you have described it and i am very familiar with the terms/words/symbols your attempting to use to describe your shift in reality and how difficult that can be to describe.
Its like learning a language for the first time when you try and take an empowered soul(I) experience and put it into words. :long sigh:

Such a shame too because so much is 'lost in translation' until we learn that language of inner and outer self as it pertains to all aspects of reality.
That is a point i am at now, reading Rudolf Steiner's book:
Theosophy: An Introduction to the Spiritual Processes in Human Life and in the Cosmos (1904)

I'm learning what terms to use to describe my reality inside and out. But i need practice.
A new practice i have taken up to sort of organize and structure my thinking/researching more appropriately (and not as FRANTIC 'when will i Know ALL') is a very academic approach which is rare for me i tend to be more meditative or psychedelic in my learning process. But im setting aside time(when i allow it to influence me) into certain categories such as reading writing researching etc etc balance. balance. balance.

Anyways, ill be back to offer you more (attempts at)insight tomorrow, gunna compile a list of books that have helped me through a lot in the last year as well i will attempt to relate my similar experiences to yours that i might give you a taste of how NOT alone you are with all this. UNIQUE! but not alone.
BE WELL!!!!

PS. Something you may grasp in the near future is that theres no hurry, none at all. There is nothing about this reality, this universe that you dont already know. Its all inside you, the trick is to remove the ignorance that can daily block the view of that Truth and Knowledge that you are. YOU ARE! okay goodnight

reply posted on 12-12-2008 @ 07:10 AM by s0ndernet

Originally posted by Astyanax
Please Read This Carefully, OP

Do you find that, not only is your mind sharper, but your sensory perceptions also seem more clear-cut and intense?

Does the world suddenly feel full of meaning just beneath the surface?

Do you feel as though things you never understood are finally coming clear?

Do you feel an urgent need to understand and explain as much as possible 'while you still can'?

Do you find yourself able to manage with very little sleep?

If so, it may be that everything's fine; on the other hand, you may be experiencing the initial manic phase of severe bipolar disorder. I don't mean to scare you, but a quick checkup might be in order.

Sorry to bring you down, but sometimes a grain of good sense is in order, even on ATS.

WOW by this account all my best friends and I are bipolar to the maximum. Well besides the ones on prescription drugs, they are not. Instead they are solely and completely depressed to the point of near suicide most of the time.

When this transition happens, take the metaphor of your brain as a puzzle.

Until now(maybe) you haven't seen the puzzle in its parts or in its whole.
Sure you've heard people talk about it maybe you felt like you had your own puzzle to build but NOW you are aware of it, that is certain.
There are several ways to view the puzzle and i would argue one affective way to approach it....
Not as a whole/complete not as a single piece/incomplete BUT as a PROCESS, pick up each piece at a time and understand how it forms your world, patiently place that piece before yourself and work with it until it works itself into the WHOLE of the puzzle. (in a way, you can recognize this puzzle as already completed -outside time-? yah?)

As warned...
If you can observe only 1 piece you may recommended to a doctor, if you observe the whole puzzle at once you may be recommended to a doctor, if you see a giant mess of puzzle pieces you WILL be recommended to a doctor , BUT if you are patient with the process and the FUNNNN of playing with and putting together THE PUZZLE, right here right Now! you do not need a doctor you need a playmate and they are alllllll around you. i love my mind puzzle, its coming along so well, so many colors and sounds, i can be proud of you and me knowing we share the same play area for our puzzle party(life).

It goes without saying that if you aren't wise about your thoughts when entering into this transition in your reality/beliefs/experience/knowledge/truth/etc you might find yourself so frightened by the totality of it that you may begin to think a doctor might offer you the only way out of what for some becomes a 'bad trip'.
They will attempt to convince you your psychotic. BUT KNOW THIS! everyone i have ever known including myself who has ever followed by western psychiatric drug oppression, even for a time, has been set back and damaged in many ways by the dumbing down of the intellect/perception.
(I took prozac which is straight fluoride, im sure you've done your research on that. im still upset with mySELF for not being more patient and understanding of my PROCESS. It cost my body a lot as im sure even the small use of the drug toxified my body/brain heavily.)

Oh Astyanax....:sigh:
lol @ whack psychology. silly silly western science. i dont WANT to belittle your fear mongered perspective but oh wait ...YAH I DO.

reply posted on 12-12-2008 @ 07:18 AM by s0ndernet

Originally posted by whitl103
I feel free to cry when a song strikes a cord or the sunset paints the sky.

Or someones Truth speaks to your heart! Thanks for that set of emotion, it was wonderful to read your reply. I too am understanding and writing endlessly about how i interact with and relate to emotions. What an awesome way to experience life right!?
thank you

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Originally posted by whitl103
Also, what are your views on DMT?

After experimenting with a few things that are out there, and thinking long and hard about the benefits, I've come to a conclusion with DMT. I don't intend on ever doing DMT. DMT is more evidence of God's existence, and I think it should be saved for when he/she/it intended (at death).

God or nature or the universe or Love (they are completely intertwined from my perspective), has essentially booked us all for the most exciting trip of our lives when we die. DMT has made me essentially fearless in terms of death, because clearly death is supposed to be a mind/soul blowing, positive experience.

Anyone else?

Read The Spirit Molecule, found it boring compared to sitting in a room with 3 people on DMT but thats not saying much. WOW is that a powerful experience, i chose not to partake a lot for the same reasons as you but i listened to my friends' voices after they came back to their bodies and chose to speak in time. wow just wow. we are in for a trip thats for sure!!!!!!
If one ever needed encouragement about their fear of death, DMT makes for a great 'pick me up' of an explanation of the ride that lies ahead.

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Originally posted by BAZ752
Oddly enough, it was such an amazing feeling and really made me want to giggle, and also 'cry' simultaneously, if that makes sense???

The COSMIC GIGGLE my friend, oh how i have laughed endlessly when caught inside this moment. There really is nothing like it!

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reply posted on 12-12-2008 @ 07:42 AM by s0ndernet

Originally posted by whitl103
reply to post by survival

Very interesting stuff, survival. I'm going to hang on to that quote.

I was raised substance-free as well. Marijuana was definitely a gateway drug for me. To spiritual philosophy.

I plan to spend a lot more time on the Psychology forum and less on the Governmental and Economic forums. There's an air of potential and excitement here that doesn't exist elsewhere. I'm sure I'll see you around.

Get yourself an avatar!

Same for me as it relates to substance and marijuana, and same with the choice of forums, zomg i need more of this encouragement i swear i didnt know this existed on ats. w00t.

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Originally posted by survival
"Another frequently reported phenomenon is that when a practitioner has reached a high level of development, a halo would appear behind and/or around his head during meditation. This is commonly seen in paintings of Jesus Christ, the Buddha, and other Oriental gods. Frequently the light is pictured as surrounding the whole body. This phenomenon may again be explained by body electric theory. When a person has cultivated his energy to a high level, it may be led to accumulate in the head. This energy may then interact with the O2 molecules in the air, and ionize them causing them to glow."

I have seen this glow once. I don't know anyone else who has but im certain its accessible to our 'vision'.
One of the first times i truly left my body and realized it for what it was, i was coming down on a solo mushroom trip on summer solstice ....the energy was intense that day and the vibrations were high needless to say.
Long story short, i floated out and above my body, after a time my soul was rushed back into it and i was completely alert and perceptive to things i didnt know existed. My mind had a DIRECT channel to my soul and all the influence and support it had nearby, i heard pure thoughts of wisdom and truth flow from my mind at lightening speed. i tried to write a the thoughts down(they never left me, i didn't need to write them) but my vision was taken from me by the mushroom at the time. Truly i had received a new vision, as i looked around i saw myself, dont ask me how AND my friend we both had this halo of light.
I thought to myself omJESUS! This is rad.

What i thought odd in part though was that this was 'My' experience and my friend came home from work early to help ground me BUT i still haven't taken the time to make sense of the fact that he too had a halo.
I guess im forced to conclude this now....:deep breath:
The halo of light is there in its completed form, i only saw it because i was granted a new vision at the time.
Although i see auras, i've never seen this halo again. but i will.

I guess im starting to realize my desires and gifts as a Seer.
Funny thing is, every time i 'ask' to 'see' more its given. I'm learning to be more wise about when i ask and what i ask for.
There have been many times where i took on a lot more than i had expected, that mushroom trip was one of them -and with intention i fully gave in to 'seeing' more. spiral galaxies are a wild sensation.