posted on Nov, 20 2008 @ 04:26 PM
My First, Childhood Experience with the “Paranormal”.
I say “paranormal”, although for me, in that period of my life and then onward, it was and is absolutely normal and intuitively obvious in what I
am about to share.
It was only later, through more standard “education” and contact with people and the established cultural norms and the going definitions on what
the “world is”, that I would begin to see just how much I would have to defend the integrity and purity of the things I have witnessed and known.
For ease of matters, I will call myself as a kid CC.
My first memories in this life as CC begin at a point where I was three years old, and they “solidify” and become more stable by the time I am
four. From five years old on, I remember quite a lot of my life and times.
It is easy for me to place my different ages because, for work reasons, my parents moved practically once a year until I was almost six, when we
finally went to the home that is still our parents’ and family base.
One of my brothers is one year younger than me, so I have known him for as long as I remember. We used to play a lot as kids, and my memories of us
playing and wandering around are some of my most cherished.
For all the time since the beginning of my “memory” as CC, I had two modes of seeing the world:
-I would see it as now, through my eyes, with my consciousness interpreting what I saw and thought.
-Many times, however, I would switch to a “detached” mode (from now DMod), where I would see MYSELF and everything around me from a distance.
The way I can best describe this is to say that I would see things AND myself as CC from a distance of about two or three meters up, no more, and at
an angle of about 45 from my actual physical position.
While in this “mode”, I would see myself play, laugh, cry and the places around me. I would “follow” everything I did with extreme attention
and, from that higher platform, I could even avoid obstacles, and see things that I could not otherwise because of my physical height or position.
This DMod just happened, and I could not wishfully control when or if it would happen, but it was a regular thing, to the point that I considered it a
perfectly normal aspect of being anybody.
The only difference I felt between my “normal” perception as CC and the DMod was that I could not hear myself think. It was very silent mode.
This silence was full of knowing however, and it was naturally peaceful and very enjoyable.
My “ability” to switch into DMod ended in one of the strongest and most meaningful experiences of my life to this day.
I was in our house’s living room, playing by myself. My brother was in another room watching TV.
At this point I switched into DMod, but this time it was VERY different.
I was aware of myself as “something else”. As some people would say, it felt like a Higher Self, so I will call it HS for now.
I was also aware that I was not “alone”, but rather this was only one of a few PRESENCES, in what felt as a reunion around a table. (In fact,
from that day on I have always called it the “Round Table Meeting”…).
These other presences, just as me as HS, were faceless shapes. Still, I was very aware that they were all distinct personalities, with marked and
definite characteristics of their own.
Picture yourself in a day at the beach. You are aware of the beating sun, the heat, shiny sand, the wind, the color of the sea, the noise of the
people around and the sound of the waves, what you are reading and/or listening, etc. It doesn’t take analysis or too much time to understand and
place yourself or the surroundings.
In this same way, I did not have to analyze anything to be COMPLETELY AWARE of the following:
-All of these “Presences” and HS were ME. I was ALL OF THEM, AND ALL OF THEM WERE “MYSELF”. This might seem counter-intuitive now, but
in that moment I KNEW I was all of these, and separation was only apparent. HS was “me” as connected to the kid we were all “watching”, but
there was a sense of psychological and ACTUAL unity that was stronger than any idea or feeling I could give or convey.
I was absolute, poised and centered CERTAINTY.
-I myself as HS, and all the other presences were “PERMANENT”, meaning that it was OBVIOUS and NORMAL that we were all “THERE” from
before I was born as CC, way before into the unknown, and that we would be there "always". Time was not relevant in any way.
-The “realm” or “level” in which this “Reunion” was taking place, was permeated and engulfed by what I KNEW to be the “Presence of
God”. But not God as some person in a beard, peeking.
It was more like a pervading Energy, an overall atmosphere that IS everything, yet has very definite and perceivable characteristics. I understood at
that moment that the “silence” I felt when detached was this Presence, which fills EVERYTHING with meaning and awareness.
This Presence of the Divine, as I would term it then, was reassuring and full of wisdom, and nothing exists aside or away from this Presence.
-Going back to the reunion, there were differences that became apparent as I would “be there”.
There was one that I recognized as my “Teacher”. I knew him to be as dear to me HS as anyone could ever be, and I was happy to sense Him. "He"
was NOT a part of me. He was a "separate" Being in some way. Still, we were intimately connected.
Also, as I looked around, I would begin to be able to focus some characteristics of those other “Shapes” of myself I saw around the “table”.
Some were masculine, some feminine ( saying male or female would not be accurate; it felt more like a tendency at that moment). They-I felt all
equally at peace and worthy of being there.
There were two other of this “presences” that began to focus in a slightly different fashion than the rest.
One of them was still Me, part of that Unity, but it “felt” foreign in some way. It felt not from this earth, pretty basically.
The other “different” presence was an observer, not a part of Me or my Teacher. It felt friendly and interested, but definitely not connected to
“this world” or myself directly. It’s presence felt "right" but slightly aside from the Table, as if the observer were to remain one step
In total, I could sense about eight to ten Personalities, with many more fading or being more “blurry” behind these, for we were all in what felt
like a circle.