reply to post by philosopherrose
I've had very similar experiences to yours - extremely vivid dreams from childhood on
and I really understand the part about not being able to determine whether something really happened - in your waking life - or was part of a dream -
that can drive you a little crazy
spending large amounts of time going over your dreams - I've also done that
I've gone through periods of very painful dreaming after I've lost someone I love as well - things you just want to forget - and you think you need
to forget
I think that might be key - right there
we want to forget - and we can all repress a lot of things - but I'm not sure we should
your dreams won't let you
I've come to see that your dreams can force you to look at the stuff you don't want to - not to torture you - but to help you in the end
we need to process these things - understand them - make peace with them
it took me a long time to see it - but some of the worst dreams I've had (and I've had some unbelievably painful, terrifying dreams) have shown me
things - taught me lessons I might never have learned otherwise
you're taking Ambien I assume because you've had sleeping issues period - something I've also experienced - that's a nightmare of another kind -
sleep deprivation
Ambien can really help you - but at some point you need to teach yourself how to sleep again - on your own - if you ever really knew how to begin with
:-)
we all think sleep is a no-brainer - but, some approaches are definitely better than others
it isn't easy - but it's one of the most important things you'll ever learn - how to go to sleep - and stay asleep - it can change everything for
you
it won't stop the vivid dreams - but, it will definitely help with being able to tell the difference between dreaming and being awake - and you might
not have as many problems putting them away during the day
everyone has different sleep patterns - and I think some of us - for whatever reason - have a "thinner membrane" between the worlds of dreaming and
wakefulness - and if things get too out of balance - there's hardly any difference at all. U2U me if you are up for advice
it also helps to remember that dreams use a language of symbols - and I personally don't recommend having someone else analyze your dreams or relying
on books with cataloged meanings
I don't mean to suggest that they aren't useful at all - but they're created based on the idea of universal symbols - in the end - the language
that really counts the most is your own
so, as long as you're already spending so much time analyzing your dreams in depth, something that might help you a great deal would be to write down
your dream as you remember it - without thinking about it - in a just the facts/as it comes to you way - don't analyze
then sit down and go through it - and ask yourself what the various components of your dream mean to you - and only you
for instance - if there was blood - write a series of words - free-association style - of what blood means to you
same for where there was blood (stairs for example - what are stairs to you)
sorry to be so graphic - this is just an example of what worked for me
go through all of it - colors, noise, taste - people, animals, music - it doesn't matter - whatever you actually remember
when you begin to see what your dreams are telling you using your own personal symbolism - well, it can be an enlightening experience - and you
hopefully will be less afraid of what you're being shown
then you'll be less anxious about sleeping - eventually the whole process will balance out for you