posted on Nov, 15 2008 @ 03:22 AM
I've spent almost too long in these "no self" states of consciousness.
My first experience was while meditating... I was in "no self" for what seemed like an eternity but I think it was only 10 minutes or something. I
actually became aware of the ALL, and I saw its patterns, and I saw what timespace looked like from above, and I was just flying through all these
dimensions... but it wasn't me. It was the Everything. It was a sort of a state of no-self.
I've had a few of those during meditations since then.... but a while after I experimented in some chemically induced altered states, and had found
that while everybody else was seeing dancing pink flamingos and Incan temples, I wasn't hallucinating at all. I was in myself with no major visual
effects, but I also wasn't myself. I was simply a reference point in a much larger crystalline pattern that ecompassed everything......
Ever since these events.... I've been able to feel all the energy of the universe converging on me at once and flowing through me constantly.
I feel like a helpless messiah sometimes. Like.... "yeah yeah I'm the one, God. I know. But problem is, God.... I just like beer too much."