posted on Feb, 27 2009 @ 03:38 AM
I just read this and I was like thank God.. I recently started this blinking crap and I hate it. But, I am really nervous or I am lying so it makes
sense. It started with my friend, he confronted me about something that happened, I'm in recovery and he heard I relapsed and was asking me and I
was going to admit everything but I wasn't ready to at that moment, for he was standing in front of one of my family members and I didn't want them
to know, so all the sudden, I'm BLINKING like a jerk off, I'm like, ummm.. oh man, my eyes are dry, when they really weren't, and I was bugging
inside my head, I felt like he instantly knew something was up because of the blinking, I felt like my face was all red, because I felt like such an
IDIOT with this RAPID blinking, never in my life had this happen.
Then fast forward a month or so later, I report to probation, and I was sooo sick and I took a cold medicine and it had that crazy stuff that DXM in
it, and I seemed kind of out of it I guess, I didn't even know it had DXM in it, my mother gave it to me and then I took it and I felt really
disgusting and I asked her, is this the crap that has that DXM crap in it? I hate it, I feel like I'm on X and my pupils are pinned and stuff. So
my PO was asking me all these questions, so again, the BLINKING started again SO bad, and she wanted to urine me (and I was clean so I was fine with
it) but I was so nervous, I actually had to sit and close me eyes and told her I needed to collect myself, and my voice was all shaky and I kept
blaming it on the medicine but really, I was so bugged out inside because of this BLINKING issue happening AGAIN so bad, I had to sit like an IDIOT
with my eyes closed in front of an OFFICER and I wasn't even guilty of anything, LOL.
Then this week again, my therapist was kind of reeming into me about how I missed group last week, etc. And again, I started the blinking again.
Now, this is a pshycologist, and you think I would feel comfortable telling my doctor who I get all sorts of medications from for my other disorders,
yo dude, I have this weird blinking crap starting, but no, I was crying wolf with Ohhh the light in my eyes, do you have visine, saline solution
I am glad to know though that I am not the only one who does this. To think though I use to be able to be such a rotten person and lie to people with
a poker face and not blink for 10 hours if I had to if you were sticking a hot poker in me, lol...