posted on Nov, 17 2009 @ 08:18 AM
Interesting.. while reading this I got the strong feeling that this is wrong, I don't know if it's just the words mind control that triggered that
response but that's the feeling I was getting..
At the same time I could hear my "dark side" whisper things like: "Imagine what you could do with this knowledge" and things like that..
Now, here's my problem.
I had a girlfriend..
She's gone for a year as a student.
We decided that we should try to stick together, and we did for about two months.. when she felt that she had to cut her ties to her home or else
she'd go crazy, she had to live her life there for the time being she told me.
She couldn't take missing me like crazy, at least that's what she's saying.
She says she still loves me and misses me, but that she have to focus on being there for the moment.
And that we would see each other when she comes home and see how it feels then(you can't promise someone that you will love them in the future you
She said that if she still loves me a fraction of how much she loves me now that she would "hunt me down" when she gets back.
The problem is I feel as though we might lose each other by creating that wall between us, that it separates us in our minds somehow.
Before we broke up I wasn't worried, I was calm and collected, doing what I do. With almost no doubt at all in my mind that we could make it.
But after she dropped the bomb I'm not so sure anymore..
Fast forward a bit to yesterday, when I had this intense sex dream, I don't even remember who it was with, but I feel as though it was her.. it
lifted my spirits.
Now, today I wake up from a horrible dream in which she wrote to me telling me about how she had had sex with someone else..
I felt devastated, didn't know what to do or what to think for a while..
I tried to calm myself down but it felt like the dream might have been a glance into the future.
Would it be immoral of me to use this technique? Vizualise our good times?
Daydream of her, and how much I love and long for her.. is that wrong?
Doesn't feel like it, but I could use someone else's perspective on it, I'm way too emotional right now.
Isn't this what keeps love alive?
Are we not creating a barrier between our feelings by neglecting them?
Hope this makes any sense.
(Notice how many times I used the word feel? Yeah I'm a right side of the brain type of guy ^^, )