posted on Nov, 6 2008 @ 10:53 AM
Long time reader first time poster.
I find there to be a lot of loons on the internet and quite a few here. I think I may be turning into one myself.
I have been constantly day dreaming about mass destruction events.
Maybe it is because i come here too much and read all the gloom threads that are constantly posted.
I dont believe my own thoughts, and I have no desire to believe my own thoughts. I dont believe Obama is the antichrist or anything and i dont
believe in the NWO the way it is portrayed here and other places. I dont believe there is a global unified body of elitists known as the illuminati,
but I have read and tried to understand the thinking behind it.
While I do believe corruption has taken over the highest places of politics and banking I dont see it as a unified conspiracy to kill us all off.
That just does not make sense to me.
Anyway, that being said, I can not get these events out of my head. I live in a large metro area, and I work in the maintenance (if that is what you
want to call it) field. While I work throughout the day, I just get the huge overwhelming feeling there is going to be some incursion or some event
of large scale on the horizon on me or my families life. I really dislike doom and gloom threads, but I don't know how to explain this feeling.
It is really starting to bug me. I have a wife and son and try to distract myself with them. It works at times, but then the same feeling will come
back stronger the next day. Anyone have any advice on getting rid of these feelings? Or why I may be having them? Should I just stay completely
away from the internet? That is my next step if I cant figure this out soon.