reply to post by HugmyRek
I know how hard it can be to put down in words thoughts and feelings that truly, deeply move not only the mind, but the soul, too. The words just
don’t come that easily. They evade, avoid and hide.
But they are there
, believe me.
It is possible to read the sheer frustration you are feeling in your first post, and more so in the subsequent posts in reply to those who cannot
follow, or recognize, a piece that is, at its very genuine heart, a stream of consciousness.
Your mind on the page.
Concepts you are uncomfortable with made flesh.
Not an easy exercise. Even more so when replies you expected do no more than criticize your intent, and fail to see beyond the words. That, in it’s
self, is not a condemnation of anyone
who has so far responded, by the way.
I pulled these comments from your thread:
More recently I became aware of the things that might not have happened yet-and because of some that recently have, and these *maybe not
happened yet* are that which cause me the most pressing concern. What risk in a recovered memory?
The next was, not Tidor-though I read every one of his listed responses on Tidor.com-it was his machine discription. Some of his stuff doesn't
ring true, but the gist does. So...I have to wonder if he is he or They on a detrimental misinformation campaign. (specifically Florida not being
manitoba; and leaving out a *particular* in the ABCCBA configuation-that would cause for multiple massive world line creations if tested over and over
to find the *glitch*, assuming anyone ever made it home)
And I'm just trying to report bombs in bridges and dams and buildings (televisions and airplanes-things in; chips) that by ...(no wording)
aren't humanly possible. That, it's dawning, may not have happened yet.
You’re talking about the sensation that you’re experiencing possible precognitive, or psychic episodes. And the risk you took in relating these
“recovered” memories is to bare to all of us the psychological effects this, as yet unverified faculty imparts. Psychological as in
, not disturbed, by the way.
I have no way of telling, and have no qualified right to question, what is going on in your head. I do not
believe that you are in any way
attempting a hoax here with the core suggestions in your original post. But it is obvious that whatever
is transpiring, it is having a non too
Some words of inexpert but honestly meant encouragement and, hopefully, help: Maybe the simple act of writing these thoughts down could be
constructive; purging them from your system as it were.
Don’t worry about not finding the correct terminology; that’s not what is important here. If they’re constantly contending with your everyday
considerations, then they may need this physical outlet.
Deem them having being written to be the end product.
Once they’re out, they are not your concern anymore.
There’s nothing you can do about John Titor’s time machine, but you have
recorded your reflections on potential flaws in the story. 9/11
turn out to be an inside job, and if you have a theory on it, make that theory into a hardcopy (pen and paper).
If it makes you feel better, and just in case you are
encountering intuitive flashes, place these thoughts in sealed envelopes, mark (in code
maybe) on the outside what they’re about, and post them back to yourself. When received, don’t open them. The dated postmark will, if they come
true, go someway to verifying your insight.
Because being raised by time travelling monster serial killers more astute and genius than most of the people I've ever had cause to cross
paths with--just doesn't seem to fit anywhere I can grasp to know how to convey it...to anyone but.
, you’re on your own with that one. Sorry. You have a good sense of humour, that I know, so I am supposing this is an aside that may
well be a little too
far-out for most readers.
Then again, (and this is looking at the world without my skeptic’s hat on) if you are the ward of such… bizarre
guardians, then you have my
I have to also say, in closing, that if you are constantly surrounded by conspiracy and obscure and outlandish theories, as we all are here on ATS,
then it can
affect your cognitive processes. And that is irrespective of intellect or education.
And that is also from experience.
I took a self-enforced break from these boards for a good three to four months. It cleared my mind beautifully, helped me focus on what is really
important in my immediate
life, and gave me a fresh perspective when I returned.
Whatever the cause of your current malaise, the same course of action might not be a bad idea. It isn't running away. It's regrouping.
If you take that advice, then I’ll look forward to your return.