posted on Oct, 31 2008 @ 12:23 PM
I have a mild form of OCD, and some things you've said sound familiar to me.
As a teen I would become stuck on words, think of how many letters there are, and find the middle. It served no purpose, there was no reason for
I'd also (and sometimes still do) see larger squares in the pavement and step over the middle one. So imagine a 3 x 3 square of 9 paving, I'd step
in the first middle one, over the center paving, and into the third. I still find myself doing it now sometimes, but it's not very often.
I am also a perfectionist in a lot of ways. I'm an artist and a writer, and I find myself going over things so many times that it's hard to get
things done and be happy with the result. I have learned over time to know when to stop, then either tie it off as a finished project or go back to it
The manic side comes out sometimes too, and I find myself right now with four uncompleted novels on my PC, six unfinished portraits and a couple of
business ideas still in the planning. I find it hard to focus on one thing long enough to finish it.
It's not that I get bored, I just want to do everything. I know that if I could split myself into three people, life would be great!
One of my closest friends, one who I share all this with now and then, says that I am too sensitive to what's going on around me. She says I think
The way I see it, we are all different. Put a label on whatever you like, but the fact that I counted letters or step over paving is a quirk. These
things make us unique, and as long as they're not hurting they're fine to have without the labels or any associated medication.
And I do agree with other posters, belief systems are useful, as is meditation. Spirituality in one form or another focuses the mind, quietens the
shouting. It does help me.
I would say try cutting down on your external stimulants for a while and see how that changes things. Turn off the music for a week, put down the
video games, spend an hour here and there just sitting quietly; meditate.
I think it would help you.
And I also agree that you are extremely eloquent. Some people are naturally poetic, if you don't already write, I think you should.