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Diagnose ME please

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posted on Oct, 6 2008 @ 02:29 AM
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Diagnose Me

Hello every one this is my first post on above top secret. I’ve come here looking for answers about myself. I come here to ask members of this community who are more knowledgeable than my self to diagnose me. I need to know if I’m just plain crazy, special or if everything I speak of in the paragraphs to come is just coincidence. Before I start though I would like to throw out some odd facts about myself and my family that may help you understand me. I have rarely shared these experiences before with anyone until now for the fear that people will think I’m crazy. So sit back and enjoy a good read.

First off there is a history of occurrences with the date March 29th in my family. My mother’s father was born on March 29th and died on March 29th. My fathers, fathers sister was born on March 29th and died on March 29th. If your following me you guessed It I was born on march 29th.

My great Aunt who shared the same birthday as me I only met once. I remember my father and the rest of the family saying she was kind of crazy. I do not know the medical term for the condition she had but it basically was a thing layer of skin that covered her face.(my father called it a vail) I only met her once when I was younger (a story I will go into later) and do not really remember what she looks like. My father told me that my great Aunt could see things no one else could and could predict things that happened in the future. For example when my dad’s father died my great Aunt who lived in Ohio at the time was sitting on the chair in a room with her daughter and told her daughter that in 5 minutes one of my other aunts was going to call because her brother had just died. I guess her daughter did not think anything of it until the phone call came not five minutes later. It was shortly after this instance that I met my great aunt. I was around 5 at the time and I was at my grand fathers funeral. (the one she predicted) All I remember is standing with my father and my great Aunt coming up to me and saying to my father Robert this one is special. Then she put her hand on my face and said I can feel it in you. Your like me. Since I was so young I was not really freaked out about it but it more or less confused me. My fathers reaction was to just kind of play along with her and walk away. Later my great Aunt approached my mother and told her “there is something special about that boy” meaning me. A year later she passed, on March 29th. My great Aunt also told her daughter that she saw a light glow around me.

My freshman year of high school it was discovered that I was 80 percent deaf. The doctors did not understand how I learned to talk and etc. Before finding this out I was back and forth to doctors due to the fact that my grades were never well in school. Well it turned out it was because of the hearing loss. I have had reconstructive ear surgery 7 times. I can read lips. Three of the times I had surgery there was a infection called a cholestiatomia in my ear that basically would have killed me if not removed. The infection ate away the three bones in my inner ear called the ocolies.

When I was little but old enough to talk. My father said I would sit in bed at night and have conversations with people yet no one was in the room. I guess he never really paid any attention as to what the conversations were about. At one point my parents were considering having me talk to a priest because for some crazy reason they thought I might be possessed. Now my father has said this seriously in the past but also has claimed he was only joking about the priest part. So I don’t know if that is 100% true.

Well now I’m 28 years old. A lot of things I can not explain have happened to me in 28 years. Not going into specifics unless anyone is interested here are some of those things.

-In the past I have had dreams at night where shortly there after they would come true

-I remember my first bad dream as a child vividly but can not explain it. There are no people in it only dark shapes, time does exist, I feel it is a moment that will come in reality that evolves the fate of millions of people. I can not explain it though. It is like nothing practical to myself as a human.

-For a male I’m extremely emotional. When someone one around me is in pain I feel it as if it were my own.

-When friends, family or even people I don’t even know are upset I know the reason. While talking to them I’m able to feel what they feel inside and often times have told them about things that there is no way I could know about them. The tones of these conversations are always positive. Everyone I have ever done this with is amazed and leaves the conversation enlightened and on new path.

-When my x fiancé became pregnant with my son before she was showing. I could sense and knew she was. I felt the presence of two. It was not a planned pregnancy and the day she was going to break the news to me before she did I told her I already knew that she was pregnant. I had also told a few of my close friends I thought she was.

-I do not consider my self religious or non religious but when I was younger I led Pope John Paul through the streets of Baltimore City to memorial stadium. At one point he placed his hands on my head looked me in the eyes smiled but did not say one thing. It felt like a strong non verbal communication in my body and head.

-When I love and things go sour I fall hard to the point where it affect me physically. In the past I have experienced panic attacks and I do have a mental illness of anxiety.

- I have dreams that reoccur of me leading people into a shelter. The sky is grey and the feeling that we are being hunted or something really bad is happening over takes me in the dream. There is a religious theme in this dream.

-Before or when something goes bad or wrong (not always) I get a ringing in my ears like a warning. This has happened all my life.

- My cousin who is into Wicca and three other people I have met have mentioned seeing blue orbs around me when we have discussed Wiccan beliefs in the past. I’m not Wiccan though.

- I get feelings not visions but feelings of things that are going to happen. Last year no one believed the Giants ad a shot of wining the super bowl I don’t even like the Giants but I told everyone at my parent’s house the Giants were going to win and was able to give them the exact score. Of course embarrassed that they would think I was crazy I played it off as a joke.

Two weeks ago I had drank a few beers at my parent’s house. I was on the porch talking to my mother and father at night. I think I felt comfortable telling them this because it was so dark out but I told them something really bad was going to happen in the United States and that I did’nt know what but that before it did the economy would collapse.

I could go on and on about things that have happened in my life, situations like the ones described above but I feel I have said enough for now. Hopefully some readers will be more knowledgeable than myself and explain myself to me. I feel like I’m crazy because of all of this. Reading some threads on this site though as made me feel as if this is the proper place to discuss this though and possibly learn.

So my question to ATS members is :

1. do you think I’m crazy?
2. do you think there is something more and if there is can anyone help me control or learn more about these things?

If anyone has any questions they would like to ask me please feel free to? If anyone wants I can go into more detail or give other examples of things.

Thank You for reading




posted on Oct, 6 2008 @ 02:42 AM
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I don't think you're crazy. I think you're enlightened or ascended or evolved, in my opinion all three mean the same thing.

What other strange things do you notice about yourself or the world around you?

BTW is the tinnitus (ringing in your ears) very quick (half a second quick ring, almost like a whoosh) or a long, drawn out that tapers off that can last 4-5 seconds?



posted on Oct, 6 2008 @ 03:02 AM
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www.subter.com...

Read that article. There are some techniques in it that people have used to tap into what you have. I am curious if you have tried anything like it.



posted on Oct, 6 2008 @ 03:24 AM
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Duplicate thread. Please continue the discussion in the other thread.

Thank you.

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