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My freshman year of high school it was discovered that I was 80 percent deaf. The doctors did not understand how I learned to talk and etc. Before finding this out I was back and forth to doctors due to the fact that my grades were never well in school. Well it turned out it was because of the hearing loss. I have had reconstructive ear surgery 7 times. I can read lips. Three of the times I had surgery there was a infection called a cholestiatomia in my ear that basically would have killed me if not removed. The infection ate away the three bones in my inner ear called the ocolies.

When I was little but old enough to talk. My father said I would sit in bed at night and have conversations with people yet no one was in the room. I guess he never really paid any attention as to what the conversations were about. At one point my parents were considering having me talk to a priest because for some crazy reason they thought I might be possessed. Now my father has said this seriously in the past but also has claimed he was only joking about the priest part. So I don’t know if that is 100% true.

Well now I’m 28 years old. A lot of things I can not explain have happened to me in 28 years. Not going into specifics unless anyone is interested here are some of those things.

-In the past I have had dreams at night where shortly there after they would come true

-I remember my first bad dream as a child vividly but can not explain it. There are no people in it only dark shapes, time does exist, I feel it is a moment that will come in reality that evolves the fate of millions of people. I can not explain it though. It is like nothing practical to myself as a human.

-For a male I’m extremely emotional. When someone one around me is in pain I feel it as if it were my own.

-When friends, family or even people I don’t even know are upset I know the reason. While talking to them I’m able to feel what they feel inside and often times have told them about things that there is no way I could know about them. The tones of these conversations are always positive. Everyone I have ever done this with is amazed and leaves the conversation enlightened and on new path.

-When my x fiancé became pregnant with my son before she was showing. I could sense and knew she was. I felt the presence of two. It was not a planned pregnancy and the day she was going to break the news to me before she did I told her I already knew that she was pregnant. I had also told a few of my close friends I thought she was.

-I do not consider my self religious or non religious but when I was younger I led Pope John Paul through the streets of Baltimore City to memorial stadium. At one point he placed his hands on my head looked me in the eyes smiled but did not say one thing. It felt like a strong non verbal communication in my body and head.

-When I love and things go sour I fall hard to the point where it affect me physically. In the past I have experienced panic attacks and I do have a mental illness of anxiety.

- I have dreams that reoccur of me leading people into a shelter. The sky is grey and the feeling that we are being hunted or something really bad is happening over takes me in the dream. There is a religious theme in this dream.

-Before or when something goes bad or wrong (not always) I get a ringing in my ears like a warning. This has happened all my life.

- My cousin who is into Wicca and three other people I have met have mentioned seeing blue orbs around me when we have discussed Wiccan beliefs in the past. I’m not Wiccan though.

- I get feelings not visions but feelings of things that are going to happen. Last year no one believed the Giants ad a shot of wining the super bowl I don’t even like the Giants but I told everyone at my parent’s house the Giants were going to win and was able to give them the exact score. Of course embarrassed that they would think I was crazy I played it off as a joke.