posted on Oct, 6 2008 @ 12:04 AM
Insanity is too broad of a term to really mean anything. What people don't understand, they fear and find the need to judge with messed up terms.
I think a major part of the problem is screwing with the occult. Astral projection is usually considered to be a lower realm of higher consciousness
that includes many negative energies. You are probably being bombarded by these unpleasent entities. I'm not at all an expert, but remember when I
was younger I had a horrible time with paranoia, delusions, etc that in retrospect had to do with negative beliefs that caused fear. To my extremely
limited understanding of consciousness, fear leads to the attachment of negative energies.
What we focus on expands. What helped me to get through my troubled times was basically to stop focusing on anything that I could consciously or
subconsciously consider to be negative. Stop dabbling with astral projection. Start praying/meditating to whatever higher power you might believe in,
even if it's just your higher-self.
Realize, and I know it's easier said then done, that nobody can control you without your consent. Sure things and people of all realms can influence
you, but you are only in total control of yourself, period. This doesn't mean just focusing on controling yourself will make the noises go right
away, but in time they will be less drastic and frequent until you don't even hear them.
Get some sun time in. It helps to normalize your hormones and biochemistry. Take the mp3 player filled with some good vibrations and go for a walk.
Your diet can lead to all sorts of ailments, too. Junk food lacks the neccessary essential nutrients needed for proper psychological functioning. Try
some molecularly distilled fish oil.
Ah, and pride is a big negative component, too. I still have problems with it, but not nearly as much as I did. If you are smart, then it will show.
If it doesn't it's your responsibility to learn as to why. Pride can actually turn someone from being gifted, to not so smart. It did with me! I
have a saying "pride is the anti-gift". It can turn you against yourself! The way I have tried to understand it is that gifted people use more of
their right-brain. This part has a more direct link to the subconscious. I think it houses your conscience, too. When people continuously act out of
accordance with conscience, like being prideful and judging alot, then your subconscious sabotoges and cripples you! I've got no proof whatsoever
except my personal experiences. If I am in a negative mood, my perceptive abilities are greatly reduced.
I also had similar experiences with memory problems. It once again has to do with worrying, pride, and just general negative emotions. Also, not being
in the present moment, so to speak. Basically worrying about the future, and resenting the past. I got a book that is almost like spirituality for
dummies, but it worked miracles for myself. It's Eckhart Tolle's "The Power of Now". You might want to check it out.
Good luck and no your not insane, just going through issues..