posted on Oct, 2 2008 @ 04:01 PM
Hello ATS before I start I just wanted to say hello to everyone
Here! I have been
Reading this sites
Boards for a while now, but just signed up so that I may post. I would like to thank everyone for there posts. Which have made for interesting
reading. After reading through hundreds of pages
Thousands of posts. I feel comfortable posting this here. in
The hopes of
Receiving some advice or some professional insite on my issues. To start I would like
To give you a little background
Info on myself. I am a 24 year old male. Ex
US army combat medic. I have been
To many countrys. And have
Enough to have seen many
I have had many different skill sets pumped into my head. Over the last 5 years. From advanced hand to hand
Combat to advanced airway
Would consider myself an Intelligent individual.
With a drive, better yet a hunger for knowledge. I thrive on that. Soaking it up like a
I have been trained to
always look for a
Not haveing found
I'm forced to out source.
I am posting here for fear of
The possible repercussions
And drama associated with coming forward in person.
"the meat and Potatoes"
After a life changing event
About a year ago which I do not feel comfortable talking about yet. I have been having
Very intense dreams very life like, very real, at first very scary
Enough so that I would try to
Wake up but I never would be able to untill O43O
Hours just like clock work.
Mattar what time I went to sleep when
I wake up I feel drained like I have been up all night marching through the jungle. And I wake up very stressed. Like I
Have been working problems all night.
What was scary is that the dreams. Are always about the same. They
Start out with me standing up naked its very bright all I can see is light all around me I feel very relaxed. and then it starts! a shadow comes from
no where it just appears. a little gold
Ball sized ball of light starts to move towards me
I used to tryen run from
It but it allways
Catches me as soon as it touches my skin I feel the right side of my brain get warm and my heart
Beats very hard. but it beats slow during the dream it helps if I try to count the beats.
As I feel the warmth in my brain I start to see a
Big cycle in front of me. The diameter is about 12 feet. It looks like it is made of a purple fluid. It looks like it is flowing like water it has a
boarder that is a foot thick it looks like it is made of light. I feel like what ever it is has to warm up because every time, I have to just wait
there in front of it for things to start. At first the purple starts to move faster and faster just like its flowing water. the boarder gets
And brighter. then I feel like it climaxes the purple
Stops flowing and the boarder now has symbols shadowed in the bright light.
I can see something behind the purple. The purple now looks like a thin flim
Now. I can see throuth it but its not clear.
There is some thing or some one behind it.
I am allways very Fr3ight3n3d
At this point. because I don't always no who I will see on the other side. there have been things that I have seen. I will tell you of the one that I
am not fr3ight3n3d to see he is the one that I feel is trying to teach me something. what I do not know he has no mouth. And I can't explain how
this works but when I see him through the thin purple layer. Symbols pictures shapes and numbers flash in front of me. they flash very fast. But I
feel like I have had time to analys
Them for hours. Some of them
Make me feel different ways. Hot,cold,mad,sad,happy,
I don't really want to get that deep at the moment. At one point last year I had an interview with a sleep specialist. I did not go very deep with
her as I did not feel comfortable. What I took from the interview was that I should start a dream journel and write in it and draw what I see right
when I wake up. So I have been doing this for a while now. In the hopes of finding something of use. I
Would like to put something in this post that has came up more
And more resently I have a feeling that it may help. what, I do not know. And more importantly it is in letters and numbers that I know. Unlike the
other symbols and shapes. E2 = P2 C2 + 2 (h c 1 Ls)2(Nl + Nr - 2)
If you can help or have been going throuth this also please contact me. Or if you think that it is normal to have the same dreams over and over
please let me know I am
And not saying that this has to be anything more than night mares!
Thank you for your time.