numbers, symbols, pictures And Signs

Hello ATS before I start I just wanted to say hello to everyone
Here! I have been
Reading this sites
Boards for a while now, but just signed up so that I may post. I would like to thank everyone for there posts. Which have made for interesting reading. After reading through hundreds of pages
Thousands of posts. I feel comfortable posting this here. in
The hopes of
Receiving some advice or some professional insite on my issues. To start I would like
To give you a little background
Info on myself. I am a 24 year old male. Ex
US army combat medic. I have been
To many countrys. And have
Been privileged
Enough to have seen many
Many things.
I have had many different skill sets pumped into my head. Over the last 5 years. From advanced hand to hand
Combat to advanced airway
Management. I
Would consider myself an Intelligent individual.
With a drive, better yet a hunger for knowledge. I thrive on that. Soaking it up like a
Sponge.
I have been trained to
always look for a
Reasonable
scientific
Explanation
Not haveing found
One
I'm forced to out source.
I am posting here for fear of
The possible repercussions
And drama associated with coming forward in person.

"the meat and Potatoes"
After a life changing event
About a year ago which I do not feel comfortable talking about yet. I have been having
Very intense dreams very life like, very real, at first very scary
Enough so that I would try to
Wake up but I never would be able to untill O43O
Hours just like clock work.
But no
Mattar what time I went to sleep when
I wake up I feel drained like I have been up all night marching through the jungle. And I wake up very stressed. Like I
Have been working problems all night.
What was scary is that the dreams. Are always about the same. They
Start out with me standing up naked its very bright all I can see is light all around me I feel very relaxed. and then it starts! a shadow comes from no where it just appears. a little gold
Golf
Ball sized ball of light starts to move towards me
I used to tryen run from
It but it allways
Catches me as soon as it touches my skin I feel the right side of my brain get warm and my heart
Beats very hard. but it beats slow during the dream it helps if I try to count the beats.
As I feel the warmth in my brain I start to see a
Big cycle in front of me. The diameter is about 12 feet. It looks like it is made of a purple fluid. It looks like it is flowing like water it has a boarder that is a foot thick it looks like it is made of light. I feel like what ever it is has to warm up because every time, I have to just wait there in front of it for things to start. At first the purple starts to move faster and faster just like its flowing water. the boarder gets brighter
And brighter. then I feel like it climaxes the purple
Stops flowing and the boarder now has symbols shadowed in the bright light.
I can see something behind the purple. The purple now looks like a thin flim
Now. I can see throuth it but its not clear.
There is some thing or some one behind it.
I am allways very Fr3ight3n3d
At this point. because I don't always no who I will see on the other side. there have been things that I have seen. I will tell you of the one that I am not fr3ight3n3d to see he is the one that I feel is trying to teach me something. what I do not know he has no mouth. And I can't explain how this works but when I see him through the thin purple layer. Symbols pictures shapes and numbers flash in front of me. they flash very fast. But I feel like I have had time to analys
Them for hours. Some of them
Make me feel different ways. Hot,cold,mad,sad,happy,
I don't really want to get that deep at the moment. At one point last year I had an interview with a sleep specialist. I did not go very deep with her as I did not feel comfortable. What I took from the interview was that I should start a dream journel and write in it and draw what I see right when I wake up. So I have been doing this for a while now. In the hopes of finding something of use. I
Would like to put something in this post that has came up more
And more resently I have a feeling that it may help. what, I do not know. And more importantly it is in letters and numbers that I know. Unlike the other symbols and shapes. E2 = P2 C2 + 2 (h c 1 Ls)2(Nl + Nr - 2)

If you can help or have been going throuth this also please contact me. Or if you think that it is normal to have the same dreams over and over please let me know I am
Completely open
And not saying that this has to be anything more than night mares!
Thank you for your time.

You mentioned that you were an ex-combat medic. How long after you were last in a combat situation did these nightmares start? I ask because recurring nightmares are a symptom of post-traumatic stress disorder. Although these usually start shortly after the trauma was experienced, although there is a disorder called PTSD with delayed onset, where symptoms don't appear until 6 months after the stressor. My suggestion would be to check out some of the other symptoms of the disorder and see if they fit you and if so you may want to seek out a psychologist. Mind you this is just one interpretation of your dreams.

reply to post by Calicoinc



W00t! Time to break out my physics and signals analysis hat !

I will look into these numbers as some of them are familiar to me off the top of my head but the rest are not instantly recognizable (P2 C2 is a reference to a couple different things IE satellite positioning designator chip as well as its part of a Crypto string)

When I have something a bit more solid I can elaborate, that is unless someone beats me to it

Thank you both for your timely replies
To start
Xcalibur254
Having been a medic I am very familiar with PTSD.
And the
Signs and symptoms. this was ruled out very early. But thank you for your input
And quality of your post.

Originally posted by Kuronotenshi
reply to post by Calicoinc

 

W00t! Time to break out my physics and signals analysis hat !

I will look into these numbers as some of them are familiar to me off the top of my head but the rest are not instantly recognizable (P2 C2 is a reference to a couple different things IE satellite positioning designator chip as well as its part of a Crypto string)

When I have something a bit more solid I can elaborate, that is unless someone beats me to it

Thank you for your comment. If you have references to these.
As written please post. Home work is not a bad thing
In this case.

reply to post by Calicoinc


I have seen in vision something similar to what you are talking about. In my dream there is a place in the mountains almost like a school or training facility. I don't know how to describe this, but orange balls of light. Golf ball like, shoot out of this glass topped building and begin racing through the hills to find people and enter them....

Trips me out everytime I think of it. the Picture is clear as day...they were bright like iron in a furnace.

Welcome to posting. Blessings to you.

reply to post by Calicoinc


The letters and symbols are only meant for you. They will reveal themselves and what they are at the right time. Just be patient...the spirit is pouring out and will reveal the significants at the correct time. Trust...in you.

Peace

Originally posted by letthereaderunderstand
reply to post by Calicoinc

 

I have seen in vision something similar to what you are talking about. In my dream there is a place in the mountains almost like a school or training facility. I don't know how to describe this, but orange balls of light. Golf ball like, shoot out of this glass topped building and begin racing through the hills to find people and enter them....

Trips me out everytime I think of it. the Picture is clear as day...they were bright like iron in a furnace.

Welcome to posting. Blessings to you.

Thank you for your post. I don't feel as if anything enters me in the way of another being
Or form of life.

reply to post by Calicoinc


In my visions it is just a ball of light, not a life form I'm aware of, maybe a seed or knowledge or something. Anyway...don't be frightened. I know that is hard to do, as this is VERY frightening. But trust me, it is shaping you. Peace

I just may have had a brake. These numbers may be referring to a study in titled. "String Thoury".
I'm going to do a bit more digging.