For years I've been having dreams about being back in high school. I understand these are very common and have several popular interpretations.
In mine, it's typically a 're-imagining' of my old high school. The layout is different, but everything looks pretty much the same. It's usually a
stress-filled dream; I don't know where I'm supposed to be, and can't remember my locker combination (or location for that matter). I'll spend a
little while wandering aimlessly, or looking for a classroom, and the whole time I'm thinking, "What exactly am I doing here? I clearly
remember graduating in 1989. I'm in my thirties and I'm just gonna go home. The dream usually ends with a feeling of relief, as I realize I am an
adult and the teachers can't make me stay.
Still, I've always been kind of confused as I woke, wondering what I'm trying to tell myself with these.
I have a similar recurring dream involving church, but that's for another thread.
My last two 'visits' to this school were different. A few weeks ago I dreamed that I was there, but also many of my peers were. There were also
folks that I knew were supposed to be fellow ATS members, though I've never seen their faces. There was a feeling of 'the last day of school', and
though I was still a little confused as to why I was there, I wasn't trying to 'find' anything, and I had no desire to leave.
I was going to post this then, but the one I had last night was even stranger.
Some of you folks know that I've been interested in lucid dreaming, OBEs and the 'Akashic Record' for a while. I've been trying to find ways to
meditate, or at least get to sleep easier at night. I feel that the next step in my development is to learn to 'quiet my mind' and try to establish
a better dialogue between my consciousness and subconscious.
A while back I mentioned in this thread
how I used to try randomly
attacking folks in dreams that became lucid. My reasoning being that it was MY dream so they were MY people and places to react to as I pleased. I've
since then come to think of my dream settings, particularly those in lucid dreams as having more substance. I think that these dreams may be visits to
an actual 'place', and the others there are not merely extensions of your own subconscious, but those of others, also 'visiting' the place through
a collective consciousness. Or that place is
the collective consciousness.
SO... Back to my dream last night. I'm at the school again, and this time my status is as a "visitor". I am with one of the students who is guiding
me to a class of hers that I am there to observe. As I enter the classroom there is a young man of African descent with a video camera pointed at the
door. I'm startled to see that I'm being videoed, but look directly into the lens and smile. Then I take a seat. It's a music class (some
background: I'm a musician) and the students are preparing to give vocal recitals.
At this point I realize I'm dreaming, which has never happened in these school dreams. I stand up and remember that I have vowed to attempt to fly
anytime I find myself dreaming lucidly. BUT, I'm indoors. The notion to attack folks never occurs, but would have if I had found myself there just
two years ago. SO! WHAT TO DO?! I know that these dreams usually don't last long, so I need to try something
. So what I decide to do is walk
up to a pretty blonde-haired girl sitting at one of the desks and kiss her.
Blondes are not my preference, so it's a little strange. And even as I bent down to kiss her, I had a VERY conscious thought: "Oh sh**, what if I'm
wrong?" But all she did was kiss me back, and it was entirely realistic. Her taste and smell and the way her lips felt. So realistic that
concentrating on the sensation while knowing I was dreaming overwhelmed me and I woke up.
I interpret these school-themed dreams as my not having learned something that life is trying to show me. I've found them frustrating, because I
didn't know exactly what that might be. But recently I think I've had a considerable amount of 'spiritual' growth, and I think I'm being allowed
to 'graduate' to a slightly