posted on Mar, 22 2004 @ 05:02 PM
I was seeing this girl that I met at my old work place. She was amazing, extremely beautiful, smart, she listened well, and we seemed to really
understand each other. Shortly after I started dating her I was laid off from my job. I believe it was because my boss had a grudge against me.
Everyone gets laid off some point in there life so It wasnít too bad. I found a job rather quickly. I continued seeing this girl outside of work. I
guess we rushed into things & things got physical pretty quickly. We were very close to having sex when we both realized that we were moving way too
fast. The next day I realized that I was missing my wallet. I figured I must have left it in her car. I went to my old work place during my lunch
which happened to be during her lunch also to get my wallet. There was this overwhelming sense of embarrassment. We hardly said anything during the
walk to her car. On the way back we talked even less.
Looking back on the situation I should have said something like yea we moved to fast but I think we should still see each other. At the time I
couldnít really say anything. I felt that I really hurt someone I really cared about. But of course she had equal part in the whole thing. So after
that I didnít call her, she didnít call me. So we both went our own separate ways.
This one time I was sitting at a red light, somehow she pulled up next to me, she was going to make a right, I was going to make left. There was a
lane in between ours. We had eye contact for Iíd say 10 seconds when a huge truck came in between us. This was somewhat of a sign maybe. When I got
home, I called her cell phone. We both agreed that the truck coming in-between us was rather odd & that perhaps it wasnít meant to be. But she told
me that she still thinks about me a lot. But later in the conversation she told me that she met someone. Pretending to be cool with that I stayed on
the phone for ten more minutes then made an excuse why I had to go. My heart being crushed I then burned her number hoping that I would forget about
To this day I still think about this girl. Iíve dated some other women since then but I find that nothing really compares to the time I spent with
her. I donít really know what to do with my self about this. There isnít a day that goes by that I donít think about her. I may seem a little
obsessed but I think of it differently. I view it as once you found someone how I found her thereís nothing that really compares.
What do you think I should do? Being that I burned her number & all. I was thinking about going to her work but that might be viewed as a little
obsessive. Should I send her flowers? Iím not sure if sheís forgotten about me. If sheís in a serious relationship I wouldnít want to come