posted on Sep, 4 2008 @ 02:28 PM
Hello everyone. I'm going to do something that's a bit unusual for me on this website, and I'm going to post something that's a bit deep and a bit
serious, but definitly from the heart.
Let me start by first telling you a bit about myself, because I think it may be important to help you guys relate to what I am saying.
My names Samuel. I am 16 years old. I live in North West London on a little estate behind a store, and I wonder. I wonder a lot about things and today
I feel that I should share something I'm wondering about on here, because maybe you guys can help me out or something.
Basically, I don't feel right, and what I'm going to talk about now is related to my signature 'the biggest lie you can tell yourself is that
'when I get what I want I'm going to be happy'.
I am a fool for this. I lie to myself constantly. I like to think that I'm quite secure in my life, and that I'm intelligent and a good person, but
these are lies. They're lies because I'm not seeing reality. I'm living in my own screwed up world and I don't know how to get out. I keep telling
myself that all after I achieve 'this or that' or whatever I'm going to be happy, but of course it isn't true. I just want to be happy with what I
am, what I have and everything that there is now, but I've built these false ideals in my head and they're hard to get rid of.
I think that's all I'm going to say about that now. Is there any help you guys could offer at all, coz I think I really just need a different
perspective or something.
Admin Edit: removed personal details.
[edit on 5-9-2008 by Crakeur]