posted on Aug, 22 2008 @ 03:34 PM
I would consider myself a skeptic, however due to some very real personal experiences I have to call some of these claims into question. I've always
had very sound mental health, until a few events around 2 years ago. Since then i've been in a virtual non-stop battle with OCD-like symptoms, along
with 'sleep paralysis' (many times hearing voices) sometimes 2-3 times a week.
***Warning Personal Dreams/Experiences*** -- You might find them boring/irrelevant.
For example while under the influence of Cannabis (I no longer partake), I began to have a panic attack for no apparent reason, so i went into my room
and turned on my XM. It was the Art Bell show, and I heard a 'demonic voice or chant' is the best way i can describe it. Completely freaked out i
turn it off. But being the person I am, i decided to investigate further by turning it back on. I heard 'You can't get rid of me that easily'. Then
the intro music for C2C came on, from a break.
Another significant dream, I was chasing UFO' with someone, and I asked 'To see them'. The guy told me it was okay, and that they would show
themselves, or something to that extent. Then it felt like we were running down a levee (a childhood archetype for me), seeing something flicker and
flash. I saw the US flag, and other 'firework type things', which makes sense since it was the day after the fourth of July (I keep a dream log).
Then i saw three previously invisible craft, shoot off into the sky. Directly after that, I had 'sleep paralysis', only this was unique because
normally i'm freaked out and try to 'roll out of it'. But this time I actually held still and didn't panic. I felt as if this 'thing' was doing
an inventory on me, for lack of better words. I heard him/it 'say' that I was infected, that word stuck out, infected. And this is where it gets
really 'delusional' (so soon right? haha) I thought it told me that i would have to 'go with them and that it will take 45 (hours? maybe)'. I
don't know this part seems weird to me. But shortly after, I woke up very confused (Seemed like maybe 45s-1m of this?)
Up until this point in my life, i've never 'heard voices', but on a few occasions mainly during sleep paralysis, I have. What is strange is that
the other night, I had a lucid dream that someone was performing a form of acupuncture on me. When he/she/it started doing it to my toes, I
immediately found myself in the grip of 'sleep paralysis', with the sensation of a 'small entity' outside of my body leaving. I could even hear
the rumble of my A/C while this was going on, afterwards I immediately woke up in a panic. However, my OCD-Depression like symptoms were gone.
I don't know, but I get 'sleep paralysis' often, I even have a ghost story that correlates with this phenom as well, it's quite interesting, but
i've ranted enough.
I know right? I take all of it with a grain of salt, but these things are having/had a big impact on my life. Being a graduate student in Psychology,
any disturbances in my mental functioning will impact my academic and social life profoundly. At the same time, it's fueling my quest for knowledge
and understanding of the psyche, which modern psychology lacks.
I know that was kind of a long, personal post. My apologies.
[edit on 22-8-2008 by Blacknapkins]