i've had a recurring dream like this over this past year or so
well, i don't really know if i could honestly call it a "recurring" dream
anyway, i'll just explain
the first time i had the dream, i met her and there was a sense of real danger and urgency around us. she was the most beautiful vision i have ever
seen before or since and i immediately knew that she was "the one", which was funny since i also had that sneaking feeling that it was too good to
be true lol
it seemed like the sense of urgency came to a crescendo and then all at once everything was darkness. it was like the world had ended but i was still
there and she was right there with me. i couldn't see anything but her and we lay there for what seemed like days. it wasn't sexual, my feelings
were more focused than i've ever felt in real life. it was purity and it felt like it would never end.
toward the end of my dream, i felt myself returning to reality and became saddened and began to weep. she sat up and brushed the tears from my cheek
and said, "you're only waking up. everything will be ok. i will see you again. i love you." and with that i awoke, tears running down my face but i
could swear to you right now that i could still feel her. i felt as if she'd truly been there moments before and i could still feel where she had
wiped my tears away. i could feel the air beginning to chill the warmth i felt against my body where she was only moments before.
months passed and i still thought of that dream. i had told my friend about it and she said that maybe there was something to it. she said that maybe
i'd somehow tapped into the consciousness of my soul mate. me being me, i don't know much about soul mates or things like that so i really didn't
know what to think.
one night, i was in the middle of a nightmare. i was running from whatever terror was haunting me at that particular moment and then at once it all
melted away. i was in that place of darkness, that empty space where i had been a few months before. i turned around and there she was, just as
beautiful as ever. i haven't the words to describe facial features but her hair was the same sandy blonde as before, her skin the same tone. she
wasn't pale but she wasn't really dark complected either. her eyes were the same gorgeous blue from the dream i'd had before and i smiled i think
the biggest smile i have ever been able to muster. i think i actually smiled in the real world it was so big lol.
we walked toward each other slowly and raised our hands in the air, gently passing our fingers across each others hands and then, being the suave guy
with the smoothest lines in all the land said, "hi"
she smiled and kind of shook her head and giggled and then she said, "see, i told you we'd see each other again." and then grabbed me and we just
held one another as we had before, for what seemed as much like hours as it did minutes and soon i once again felt that terrible call of the waking
world. before i woke up i stared into her eyes so that i could savor that feeling of wholeness, to carry it into my life. as i began to wake up i
said, will i see you again?" and she said, "yes you will, i can guarantee it"
i woke up this time with a smile, not tears because i know what she said was true and i will see her again. i'm starting to think my friend was right
and maybe that is my soul mate. it seemed too real just to be something fake but no matter, the lesson it taught me is one of hope. it taught me that
sometimes things happen that i will never understand and that it's ok to have these emotions that are in me. it's taught me how deep my heart can
feel and how it will feel when i'm with the one for me. i've not found her again in six months so maybe that was the lesson i needed to learn or
maybe it's just not the right time but i still think about her and in an odd way, i miss her.
sorry for all these words but it feels good to get them out, especially when telling people who have had similar experiences. it makes me feel good to
know i'm not the only one
***edited because i didn't explain properly at first
[edit on 19-10-2008 by Barathrum]