reply to post by Sonya610
Cute, how fun, you like to fight back, I like that.
I can admit my insecurities unlike you. My insecurity is rejection/acceptance and I become very hostile when I am rejected.
My other insecurity would be paranoia of other's thoughts and jumping to conclusion. A major insecurity is that I have not yet got a child, so of
course I am very jealous towards other parents, especially young parents my age or younger therefore I viciously target them those particular
Yes, I do put others down, including those who are close to me when I am in a very bad mood especially.
It would not matter if the romance was new or I was in a relationship for a very long time. For protection of myself, I make it very clear to any
potential friend or partner exactly what my intentions would be if they twisted me the wrong way. I also show them examples which then eradicates the
potential of further conflict.
It is their own choice if they want to be with me at that time to make the decision.
I have had a 4 year relationship, therefore I understand the stress and the arguments. It wasn't me who was the one who was making the arguments, it
was the woman at the time. House can be cleaned, I have lived in a house before with many ugly sites. Baby crying all night wundt bother me, unlike
others who selfishly get upset by their baby every night crying, I wundt.
I don't care about money, unlike others.
Ill put the child in a nursery or get a baby sitter to make time. The jerk of a boss is made very clear not to take me the wrong way during the
interview. Unfortunately, the the last one who did was severally punished, not that this is a mature thing to do, its just how I am as a person which
of course donest help me grow in the future, however someone like.
Wife is tired and not always saying sweet supportive ego building things - that wundt bother me
Wife complains at times, she even criticizes at times! - she wont and don't criticize me however she can complain all she wants.
Less "me" time, rarely the center of attention, outside stress factors, partner who is busy and tired and doesn't show constant adoration and
isn't always agreeable, etc. - Outside stress factors will always get at me because i don't like people, it will be me who is busy and if she is
busy i wont be botherd also
If insensitive mean spirited comments can be thrown around now when it's "new love", one can only imagine what the future will hold when things hit
a rough patch. - mean spirited comments from strangers would get to me more than someone i love, i would harm a stranger, i wundt harm someone i
I was talking to my partner last night about how i use certain people as dummies to target my victims. For example, if someone looked at my dad i
would not hesitate to do something without a thought. However, I have threatened to hurt a police officer twice i made it clear and they understood,
all i said was " You don't want to end up on the news with your face all over when some nutter has decided to kill you and you just want to go back
to your family in the end, don't you?" I know what gets at people the most, family.
I am a very jealous and hostile individual sometimes especially to those who may have a full family because I don't, so this is why i want a
However, I do think a lot of the times about doing harm to others, I have brought in a salesman before who just wanted to sell a product, I locked the
door and beat him up.
Do you understand how satisfying it can be that you can torture someone, run them down in the ground, give them total hell and scar them for the rest
of their life's? well I do. Do you know how that feels to accomplish that? I do feel guilty of course. However, I have always been looking for a
special victim, that's why. I would use someone like my partner or my own dad or some other individual, say someone in a wheel chair as a dummy
target for others so that I can then target the individual who is targeting my dummy.
Not that my girlfriend is my dummy, but, if anyone was to say anything to a a friend of mine, my dad or my girlfriend or her mum then i wundt hesitate
to befriend the individual and torture them. Do you know how good it feels to see someone underesimate you and fight you and think there better than
you, do you know how good it is to wind someone wup then evenutally kill or torture them?. Its a very fantasticing feeling to know that an individual
is begging for their life's, screaming and crying, knowing that they should never, ever underestmate anyone.
They remember you for the rest of their lifes, you may feel the guilt after however you also feel power you also end up been alone as well.
If your strong enough, been alone wundt be a problem.
She has her right of opinion as do others and she wasn't as been as hostile however for me, I don't take criticism like that very good. Espeaiclly,
when it was not about myself, it was a genreal question which i keep pointing out. I also was very offended when she said that my partner could of
gone on to a fat site for men who like fat women, that is very unacceptable and should be severally punishable. By the way, I am not threatening
you, I am telling you my other side, no i probably wont do a u2u, I like it face to face.
Theres no point me getting fired up over her comment and she probably knew how to hit the right notes which I commend her for.
It is an interesting topic but your not keeping on line with it. My question is, how do other people preceive thoses who are different from there
partners who one maybe seen as acceptable in society and the other not.
I would like to ask a question though, think for yourself why i have targeted you more and why i am making it an issue. Think of the fact your a woman
and your in your 40's and why i would have a problem with that?
[edit on 18-8-2008 by deathpoet69]