posted on Sep, 1 2012 @ 05:08 PM
I'm sorry... I still can't get over this.
Ok, so out of the blue this person starts talking to me, using various keywords meant to solicit negative responses, making references that are meant
to make me paranoid and trying to hit on key personal points... typical song and dance and so I return with the standard politeness you'd give a
normal person as I normally would do and once again it is clear to me that this person has approached me in order to indirectly solve their problem...
and it's a pretty big problem. They never state their actual problem of course and I won't get into the strange nature of their problem because even
though it's terribly obvious to me... some just aren't going to understand how I'm seeing it.
Then they call me shy.
this is probably the most disturbing thing about it... oddly.
I mean just last week I had someone who was ALSO talking about the elect trying to convince me that the way to get raptured is to commit suicide (this
crap has been going on for years and while it used to upset me, now I'm really starting to understand that we are dealing with a very different type
of people in this world, there is a lot of them and they are NOT well)
So, yeah... they will do very signature things like try to get under the skin, make references, use keywords, do 180s... I could go on all day with
tactics but the part that has really got my head spinning is them calling me shy.
It's not that I'm offended by this. It's not really an insult so my instinct tells me they really believe this because it's not one of the more
catalyst statements but one meant to be compassionate to gain trust, therefore to them... it needs to truly relate to the way I feel... so they think
it's true and that I also believe this.
In all their attempts to read people and try to figure out what makes them tick because they have such an indirect and twisted way of trying to solve
their problems, it is shocking to me that they are so horribly awful at what they spend so much time doing. I mean, I've seen plenty of examples of
this obliviousness but it never ceases to amaze me. It's actually quite refreshing when it's fully analyzed because it could be taken as an
indication that there is no way these people could hatch a plan to complete fruition... but it's disturbing none the less because in the mean time, I
have to once again remind myself that we have so many of these strange people walking among us and their DNA is human in all respects but our humanity
is world's apart... and it's becoming more evident each day.
they have taken my gestures (which I will remind readers, it isn't really something you can ascertain from words on the internet although this is
where I just met this person) and some of those actions might give the impression of certain things, such as being anti-social or perhaps
disinterested in typical activities of others leading to a certain avoidance in an effort to prevent time from being spent on completely unimportant,
shallow and superficial crap, or maybe a little preoccupied with things that don't involve people in my immediate environment, or busy working out
actual dilemmas etc etc... but those who know me or rather those who can understand these things which are quite simple to me... they would NEVER
assume this is shyness. I may have been a little shy in school but that's all developmental crap and can be taken a lot of different ways. I even
looked at definitions of shy and I totally understand that people have different definitions of the word shy but I think there is a general meaning
there that everybody can pretty much agree on and although everyone has an occasional shy moment and I'm not claiming to be 100% exempt, shy is NOT
what I am. Period.
This freaking blows my mind.
How could a person trying so hard to be observant be that bad at it?
This makes me not want to talk to people. Not because I'm shy, but because once again it becomes obvious to me that it's a complete waste of time.
It doesn't matter what happens with some people, it doesn't matter if you tried spending all day making yourself clear to them, reality is solely
what is going on inside their lone skull, even if it involves misconstrued perceptions of others and really, as if their insidious problems that they
can't face down on their own in a straightforward manner was not enough to not want to talk to them... it is just a complete waste of time.