reply to post by Scurvy
Thank you from your questions.
What got you interested in occult knowledge to begin with?
It begins before I have born. My mother is a book writer, and she did a book from my godmother, who was very well known astrology and a truth teller
in my country. She predict my born, and give me my name to me, Janus, wich make me named as two faced god. She also write me very direct future
predict by astrology and thoughts, witch I get read myself when I turn to 20. BTW, there are only four in my country with same name as I have. When I
grow up, all the occultist behaves has come in slow movement, but when they has come, they have take me with very strongly. Maybe first touch was with
animals and their spirits.
Was there a person in your life who inspired it or did you "stumble" across it yourself?
I mention my godmother who has already past away, but maybe the strongest one is my ex girlfriend from decades ago, who lead us both to very different
worlds inside of ours. She is still my angel, and we are very important to each others in spiritual minds. But she is not only angel in my lfe, I have
been blessed with such people, like she truly are.
Have you ever used your spiritual power to do harm?
Yes, to get my peacefull state of mind back. Sometimes peoples have great gifts with spirits, and they use them without responsibility. To save your
self, sometimes you have to attack to defend your soul and spirits. But I will not attack, if I have not been attacked, because attack take always
lots of energy, and needs lots of reasons. Wanting harm is not an option, but wanting a great lesson is.
I also feel at times like I am not human.
Very nice to meet you! There are many of us, but we cant find each others very often. When we do, there is a great reason for that meeting, like this
meeting of ours.
I do not seem to get sick unless I'm in an emotional crisis
You sound very lonely. You should find people who give you back that needed positive energy of ours. Loose your mind from chains of your brains, and
trust to your motions, let them run in your life as one, with your soul. But listen your brains, every single day, but make decissions with your
motions, and trust to them. Thats the way you make more positive energy to your self, and how you can balance your power. Be careful with your ego,
dont ask always "what you want", but "what is right?" And finally, greatest reason to loose your spiritual positive ennergy is to loose that to
people who cant offer anything back... "Dont try to save all of them, save your self first."