posted on Jul, 19 2008 @ 02:40 PM
I am amazed how you guys think; so much like me, in heart and intellect. We are the Warrior Spirits; those of us who *have* signed up to help the
Human race out in these troubled times. Did we truly realize what we were agreeing to? Probably not. Likely, we wouldn't have come here if we did. I
believe we were told it would be ‘very difficult,’ but we were willing enough to face down whatever problems we would have to face. And so here we
are, like it or not. We are not them (the normal souls to whom this world belongs.) Not that they can't be loving, wise, understanding, strong, loyal
and brave, but they are often easily corrupted. We are not, and if we are corrupted we usually fight our way back to the true self, or we literally go
insane from the contradiction.
Please don't leave before your true time has come. I believe that if you do you will only be returned here again anyway. I think there is a lesson to
be learned, or perhaps something similar to what we symbolize in the form of a badge for courage, that we are meant to gain from our experiences here.
I don't think we are just here to help, but to learn and grow also. We are here because we were judged to have the ability to handle the trials. So
I sympathize with you deeply, XcLucifer, and I feel exactly the same. I have learned to accept the world for how it is (not to give up the struggle,
but to accept its current state while I struggle against it.) That is important; that balance. Finding it allows you to handle it. And by the way,
what does XcLucifer mean anyway? (I assume there is some purpose behind it.) It almost sounds like Ex-Lucifer, as in 'evil no longer.'
Anyway, please believe in yourself. You can make it, and without realizing it you are making it each day. I used to spend many hours each day
wondering how I was going to handle the weight of this world, and one day, all of a sudden, I realized that I was doing it! Each day I got up, I
worked, I fought to be me -- in myself, in my expressions -- and I went home, thought and reflected, and went to bed. While wondering how I would
handle it, I was handling it! One day at a time. I laughed and felt silly yet enlightened at this realization. I hope it helps.