posted on Jul, 19 2008 @ 01:33 PM
I'll put this in a sort of dissertation kind of way because there are many things that can be covered here. First lets discuss the blame of why would
God put me through this. Thats kind of a misnomer to say that.....God created your soul and through certain mechanisms you were born on earth to be
here for a while, learn, experience, laugh, grow.
Now the whole transgender thing could be because reincarnation just might be true and in your last life you were a woman, and those feminine energies
carried over into this life. Could be that you recieved subliminals as a child as in your mother watching soap operas or when she wasnt there, your
father watching porn. (a combination of or by themselves it could have been the audio ro the visual aspects that did it). Or you spent more time with
mom /women and begin to adapt to that format.
Or its due to molestation as a child, especially when a child is young (0-3) and if a father, uncle, cousin, etc started experimenting on you, that
could also be the culprit.
But to put blame on things doesnt solve anything. Its up to you to work it out.
So on to how to deal with this. Well first know that your life and you yourself are priceless and Loved by God, myself, and many other people who have
compassion and care about strangers.
Next, you have to realize that Spiritual Realities that exist. I dont mean getting into religious dogma, i mean search for yourself...seek out God,
start mediations, yoga, pranayama, look around, talk to people, read some books.
Why did I go with the whole Spiritual thing? Well God and these realities are real whether anyone achknowledges or not, so why not seek and find out
Your transgender desires are no different than other peoples desires to be rich, gym junkies, power, sex, addicitions, infatuations. Now I do know
that these desires haunt us and do not give us peace bcause we feel incomplete without them....but when you do achieve them your still incomplete.
Here's the kicker!!!!! When you leave your body, the actual you, which is your soul, is sexless...the real you is pure consciousness, or a
gasless-colorless-formless cloud of "being" of "thought" and of various senses similar but more amplified to what we have when we are in
The key is to realize that you are a soul, realize that the true you is sexless. Realize God and your relationship to God.
That emptiness everyone feels is because they dont have God....its called a God shaped hole that the majority of the population thinks they can
fulfill by becomming rich, or getting that girl to marry me, or becomming famous (luke Wilson almost killed himself!!!!) and so on and so forth.
But once you find God, you become completely content, complete control over your thoughts, emotions, contenment = no desires, amongst many other
And its not so hard, because he wants you to know him and is waiting for you to seek him out, so really its already there, just relaize.
Now when you do have all these spiritual experiences, the best thing to pray for is for God to do with you and your life what he wants and thinks is
best. When you keep doing this and you mean it....this shift starts to occur in your life and you start to transform in ways you thought before were
impossible, like he takes away lusts, false thoughts, addictions, selfishness, worries, anxiety, depression, and everything else.
Then your left there in awe wondering...."what the heck??? I thought I'd have this anxiety, worry, depression, desire, "fill in the blank". for
the rest of my life, but now its completely gone!!!!!! Awsome!!!!!!"
So dont go into suicide mode over this....thats the selfish way out. Your family and even complete strangers Love you and care for you. Dont listen to
negative comments. Just explore your issues, question them, in meditation seek the root of them, seek out God, know yourself by going within yourself,
take this advice to heart.
But to do nothing about whatever it is that plagues anybody in this world.....is to sit there and give into to it...and when you give into to it, it
grows stronger, and bigger, and makes you feel more helpless until finally most people take the bad way out...they give into things or they go out in
a bang, literally.
Also, be aware that different things make any of the things that bother you amplified. For example when we are drunk......different lower passions and
lower thoughts come into our field of thought and influence it, emotions influence your outlook and everything about you also. Most murders happen
when someone is in rage...then later they feel sorry and they end up saying "I wasnt myself, I dont know what came over me."
The same thing with TV and society in general. It tries to program you into believing spring break one nighters with the risks of STD's, getting
drunk & puking, being rich, huge egos, and fighting are cool....look at real world on TV...its sooo scripted and fake.
Now even TV commercials have half naked chicks enticing men to want to have sex, fat women to binge & purge, influening little kids in certain ways
and so on. So you have to be careful what is influencing you and instead spend the time to find/know yourself within, find God...to overcome all these
What will end up happening is that you will eventually transcend all things, yourself, this world, people, influences, emotions, desires.....and you
will come to a place of fulfillment/contentment.
The choice is up to you, however if you chose to stay where you are you will forever be dealing with all these things and still never be fulfilled, or
you can break through all this crap and come to a realization of who you really are. Thats why in the majority of the population men are always
looking for that "other half" that will complete them and vice versa. WHen you realize you are sexless, you complete the combination of male/female
energies and become whole again.
Also know that everything in this world is fixed. Things will satisify you for a little while, then its back to "wanting/needing." Look at
sex....you get your rocks off and your good for a little while "satisified" then few hours or days later..its right back to wanting/needing it
again. Same goes for money, power, success, drugs, and pretty much everything else. When you realize this, know yourself, and come to know God...you
will transcend and be released from all these things and will have complete freedom.