posted on Jul, 15 2008 @ 04:00 AM
These thoughts have been on my mind a whole lot lately.
Having just recently gone through some health problems that had me about to say all of my goodbyes, and knowing someone very close to me who just lost
a parent... Well, I've learned lately that life is so very delicate.
One day, someone you love will be alive and well, enjoying the time with the people closest to them. Laughing, joking, sharing fond memories of the
past....and the next day having the 'plug pulled' as everyone they love stands around the hospital bed sobbing uncontrollably while they watch the
loved one slip away forever.
I've put a lot of thought into my end, to figure out who it would affect, and how. I am pretty sure even with the loss of someone who means more than
the world itself, that life would go on as normal after the mourning process was complete.
For most people, their end is unpredictable. And, therefore, the goodbyes and the heartfelt words that you want so badly for the person to know, will
never come in time, never when it matters. Which leads to one of the most painful and guilt-causing experiences a person can face.
Just the fact that life is so delicate, makes me think about how truly alone we really are in this world.
Add to this, in just a few small years, in the grand scheme of things, a totally new generation of people unknown to us will be walking around.
They will be driving the same streets we drove.
Feeling the same emotions that we felt. Love, pain, sorrow. Even the pain and guilt when their loved one is lost.
Dealing with the same hardships we experienced. Essentially living the same exact lives we lived, but we ourselves will have been long-forgotten. Our
lives, but a tiny few years, in the history of man kind. As if we never existed at all.
Even the people who came from our children, our children's children, etc, will have no idea who we once were. Or that we lived the exact same lives
as them, once upon a time.
Anyone else considered this kind of thing, and feel insignificant and alone? Or am I absolutely crazy for this kind of rationalization?