posted on Jul, 12 2008 @ 09:30 PM
Are we drawn here because we changed, or changed because we came here?
(I have retitled this thread, because of a thought a couple of posts down. this might make more sense as you read it)
I know, I know, just writing this thread means I'm probably a little out there,but bear with these first few sentences, I have a point.
I would say that I think I am of above-average intelligence, average to good-looking, somewhat funny, and probably fun to be around. I am also
curious, too thin for my height (6' 5") and I talk WAY too much at times. I have a tendency to move around a lot, (I have some serious
energy) but I am also really outgoing, and sarcastic in a friendly way. (and really friendly, as I like to help people) More importantly, I have a
completely open mind about many subjects.
My whole job, and my future career choice (radio), depend on these traits, and although I know they can be a bit much for some, I accept that the
gains outweigh the losses. I have never had a problem connecting with people and maintaining those friendships either.
But I don't have any odd things that I do. I don't mutter to myself, collect dead flies, or compliment people on their breath. I am as "normal"
as I think most people are.
I have begun to notice something, however. Before I joined this site, I had some general knowledge of alternative topics, but rarely spoke of them. I
listened to coast to coast regularly, but now I see that even C2C has it's crap that it keeps trying to pass off as gold.
But I rarely talked about those topics, except with my brother.
Well, ever since I have joined this site, I have felt like Neo, and I took the damn pill.
Even though I have a heavy filter on when I roam this site, the sheer attitude and depth of knowledge that certain members provide, steers me in the
direction of truth and new discoveries.
I don't believe in a lot, but the truth I have found has changed me.
I look around, and I see the matrix.
I see sheep, who only want to discuss baseball, and Angelina Jolies' babies.
So why am I asking if I am weird?
Well, you see, my relationships are all changing. Nobody will discuss anything with me, and I feel disconnected from most people I knew.
It's not like I wander around talking about secret moon bases and 2012.
But try just explaining the Bear Sterns and Indymac collapse, (and it's significance) to the average Joe, and they start avoiding you.
You bring up the March 13th secret session of Congress, and they forget your name when they see you.
Bring up Alternative energy or medicines, and I can't get a Monday greeting.
Don't even get my started on Zeitgeist.
And IMO, the average American couldn't repeat more than three words of the constitution, so you know where those conversations go...
Either way, I feel like a Jehova's Witness.
So I guess since deciding what is weird, versus not weird, is the size of the group you fall into, how do you all feel? Do you feel like this
knowledge can sometimes be a burden, and can affect your relationships?
My brother won't even discuss UFO's with me anymore. (I think it's because I debunked some of his favorite history channel episodes)
I know that all things change, and I am not writing this thread with an "agenda". I am merely curious. ( this all stems from the subject of last
nights Larry King Live, which a lot of employees watched in the break room. People SERIOUSLY avoided me today.)
So am I weird, or am I not alone?
Am I being affected by this site, or did I come here for a reason?
Edit; Because I thought about it more.
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