reply to post by citizenc
, your input is always worth waiting for! Better late than never.
Question one: How do you think that your experiences differ from a "genuine" contact?
I have no idea. Seriously.
To what do I compare my “experiences” with? I have no
frame of reference, nothing tangible to connect them with other contactees (or is it
experiencers?). Yes, I can read of their
events, and sympathize with scenarios that could only be traumatic. But without an understanding of
what happened to others, never mind what I may
have been through, my events are still just odd occurrences, and not altogether unexplainable.
That said, they have
left me with vague but significant remembrances. They still haunt my thoughts of an occasion, but have as yet lost none of
their otherworldy perspective or the possibility of incongruous connotations they may well indicate happened to me.
In an attempt to answer to your question, I fully imagine
that any experience that challenges your personal perception of reality, however it
manifests, cannot but
alter that perception. It’s just down to the individual’s nature, intellect and upbringing as to how much it is
to adjust that perception.
Yes, I may well err on the side of the skeptical when it comes to my own “happenings”. And it is
easier to dismiss something that modern,
established convention can also
explain away. Maybe that’s a reluctance on my part to “step over the line”, as it where. To accept
something so unfamiliar as being real, even with a solid background of belief in all things extraterrestrial and their associated subjects, elevates
the whole subject into another level.
In hindsight, maybe this reluctance to let the more ethereal side of the issue into my life is purely a testament to the rigidity and temporal aspect
I have connected UFOs etc with. It just goes against my “nuts and bolts” approach.
And if they’d spoken back? Holy Moses. I think I’d be on valium!
Question two, VERY important: Have you tried in anyway to deepen your "understanding" of your experiences?
Yes, I have. As I said above, they are never far from my thoughts (thought they do not cloud my life or interfere with it).
It may sound, from the things I’ve said, that I cannot
admit to this “contact” being real. Indeed, it may well have been a genuine
sequence of markers leading up to me seeing “invisi-grey” looking as miserable as sin and squatting next to my bed.
My reluctance to bracket together unusual incidents as part of a whole did manifest as them being a self-diagnosed series of hypnagogic, and
hyponopompic episodes. Even the time being wrong on my and my wife’s mobile phones at the same time and by the same amount was dismissed as a
And this annoys me.
This rational, sensibly tempered reluctance to just let high strangeness in to my otherwise well-ordered world.
It really bugs me as I have no problem at all with the concept of contact. I fully expect it to happen for the whole world at some point, and dearly
wish that it would happen in my life-time. But it is my own lack of understanding, or even an inability to comprehend in what form that may happen
other than by the appearance of massive starships, that I feel hinders any personal furtherment.
I have never practiced, or even attempted meditation. But I do have a deep seated need to know
what is out there. It fires my imagination and
stirs my spirit constantly
. And the consideration of life looking back at us does
interfere with my life, but in a very positive way. I
believe that I am lucky in that I have this belief, and that those who cannot change their pretentious viewpoints are missing out on something
fulfilling. Even if it is as yet unproven.
To say "I don't understand", and then let the mind be immobilized by the intellect, will lead us to see THE SAME THINGS EVERY TIME WE LOOK
OUT THE WINDOW. Do you follow me?
Yes, I do follow your reasoning. I understand that I have to somehow let go of the conditioning I have accumulated my entire life. Some find it easy.
Some don’t, and I am in that category, unfortunately.
But I’m still trying, nevertheless.