posted on May, 31 2009 @ 01:36 AM
I just ran across this thread and was able to read only some of the responses. All the responses that I did read provided no actual help to the
I've written out the same questions for myself, almost word for word. I've hated life and everything it stands for. Even though I identify with
your OP, the short answer is that I don't have any idea why you hate. Your why is unique as mine.
A part of it is chemical. Your brain is different than the rest of silly humanity. Doesn't mean that their brains are defective. Doesn't mean
that yours is. Just different. But the difference between your brain and the average brain is killing you. And you can't let it. It ain't the
other brains fault. It is the difference between their brains and yours.
So. . .find a doctor. . .get a prescription for an anti-depressant. . .take it for two months. . .and pay really close attention to the differences.
I'm not going to get into a pro/con debate about anti-depressents here, just do it. The changes it makes to your perspective, both negative and
positive, will give you a seed to work on. At the least, it will be something new, something you don't hate yet.
That is the start. All the other factors that have led you (us) to hate everything, you will have to figure out how to address yourself. Some people
may be able to assist, but you aren't ready to let them. . .so it is up to you. It is horribly hard, but that is part of the fun. You may never
actually conquer it, but that is part of the glory. And when you succeed, when you beat the hate down, you will have something few people will ever
understand, you will have fought a battle and have the scars to show it, you will be a fuller human being than the rest of them.
And, since you will ignore this advice until you have reached absolute rock bottom, just stick it in the back of your memory . . .and do it then.
You gotta dump the hate. . .they ain't frickin' worth it. You are.