reply to post by Skyfloating
Hello again Sky and thank you for your answer.
My story begins around 4 years ago. I am 34 y.o. I had a pretty normal childhood with my parents and a younger sister. My parents are still together,
so never had to suffer any trama in that regard, though my father was pretty rough when I was young (didn't know how to deal with kids very well and
yelled alot), but other then that it was normal.
A few years prior to this happening, I had lost 3 close relatives in the matter of about a year and a half, one being my sister to drunk driving and
that messed me up pretty bad, although I didn't recognize it. I was back to work a few days after she had passed thinking I was being strong.
I have always believed anything was possible, but never had anything "supernatural" happen to me. I was a bible thumper in high school by my own
choice (wasn't raised in church) and a zealot. I went to a Vineyard Church at the time (Non-Denominational) and afterwords left, due to finding "the
world" at 21. I'm a musician and toured for a while then got married at 25. I kept my faith, but was living the rock star lifestyle, sex, drugs and
rock and roll. I wasn't ready for marriage honestly and screwed that up and was divorced by 28. After that I made a clean break and moved from
northern Nevada to San Diego where my sister lived.
I was down here 4 months and then my sister got killed, then my uncle and my grandfather all in about a year and a half's time. This took it's toll
on me, though I still didn't know it.
One night in 2004 a buddy was at my apartment and was in my room resting, we had done some partying. We had bought these "Spy ear" devices, cheap
kids toys, but we are goofy and were having fun. Anyway, my buddy was in my room and I was returning some emails for work. He had his spy ear in and
was dozing, when next thing I know he comes out of my room all freaked out. He told me, "Dude I was sitting in your room and I started hearing a
voice". I was thinking, "yeah ok". He said, "No I'm serious, it was freaking me out". He looked pretty freaked so I said, "Are you serious".
He left my house it freaked him out so bad. He told me it was a very low voice that almost sounded like chanting. I didn't hear anything and thought
it must of been the alcohal and the late hours.
About 3 weeks go by and my girlfriend had just started living with me. I hadn't thought of it since. My girlfriend and I had gone to the store, when
out of no where I started hearing a radio, like a walkie talkie and voices on it, but I couldn't make out what was being said. We are sitting in the
car, and I'm looking at my girl thinking she is going to say she hears it too, but she looked at me like I was crazy.
I'm smiling at her going, "where is it?". She says, "what?". "Ha ha very funny, where is it"? I said. This time, she says, "What are you
talking about?" So a third time I ask and I'm starting to get freaked out. "She says are you being serious?"
She couldn't hear it. I got so freaked out, I made her open her mouth because I thought the sound was coming from her direction and that she was
pranking me. She started to get worried and I could tell she really didn't know what I was talking about and was worried.
This went on the whole week. With in a weeks time I went from normal guy, to super paranoid freak. At first it was this radio sound, then I could hear
voices on the radio, but couldn't make out the words, though they sounded recognizable, just really low. Now my girl is getting really worried and so
am I. I always believed things like this could happen, but never thought it would happen to me.
As a musician, I know certain things of waves and sound and within a weeks time, I was thinking my girl worked for the CIA and had planted something
on me. I literally was going crazy. I am a rational person and could not for my life figure out why this was happening to me. I began searching high
and low for anything that could explain this to me. I found all kinds of stuff on LFE and other frequency weapons and thought, this has to be it. I
was never into conspiracies and didn't even know anything about them, but I knew in my rational mind there had to be an explanation for these
occurrences. My girlfriend had assured me bless her soul, that she didn't work for the government and would stick by me to figure this out and she
Now we are a few months into it and this is going on non stop. I never thought something spiritual, because...I was a Christian and the Devil can't
touch me so it didn't even cross my mind, plus it was only happening to me.
By now I had grilled my girl so many times, I can not believe she loved me and stayed. Any normal person would of said Adios long before, but she
didn't. I still don't know why. I had run every scenario from my friends putting me on reality tv to a secret plot to destroy me. I was going
By now the sounds were clear and I was starting to see things. Shadow people, cartoon people, bugs, animals, alien animals, Knomes, fairys, Giants,
dinosaurs and things I can't even describe...I'm not joking and I know I sound crazy, but I still knew I wasn't. I had no history of mental illness
in my family and I, as far as I knew was of a rational mind, still being able to determine reality from vision. By this time, I was calling on Jesus,
God, anyone, but it would not stop. The more I said Jesus, the worse it got.
Now we are two years in and this has never stopped. I could always hear since the start, people talking back and forth, but one day they addressed me.
Two years in and I have not gone to a doctor and I am dealing the best I can, but scared to death as my spiritual background was a Joke to these
things...literally. After they addressed me, they began doing it all the time, but these were not nice voices. They would, when they knew I was
listening, which I couldn't stop doing, tear me a new one. They began breaking me down, everything I did. I was so scared, I actually thought at one
point I had died and was in hell.
These voices would be nice sometimes, but rarely, just enough to suck me in, then the beating would start again. Breaking my actions down, and not
only that, every thought as they can read your mind. Imagine going psychotic. Actually don't it isn't pleasant.
To be continued...
[edit on 2-10-2008 by letthereaderunderstand]