posted on Jul, 8 2008 @ 02:01 AM
I have been reading this thread for about a half an hour now. I probably haven't been on this site for like 2 months, when i used to come here all
the time. I have been feeling comepletely strange for the past 3 1/2 to 4 weeks. I suddenly thought to come to ats, like i suddenly remembered it(i
have only ever posted twice, anonymously, i usually just read)and i found this thread.
Many of the things I've been experiencing, I've read tonight on this thread. I've experienced a lot in my life, having anxiety attacks, lucid
dreams, sleep paralysys, and strange dajavu fellings, and more.
But the past month or so, it's gotten horrible. Almost everytime I fall to sleep, I feel myself "slipping" and I jerk awake, feeling like I'm
going to die, or I'm having a heart attack. It's happening so often that most of the time now, I can just fall back to sleep and ignore it. I feel
resigned to whatevers going to happen to me I guess. And I don't even fear dying. I've almost died a few times in my life, and I know that the act
of dying doesn;t scare me.
I just chocked it up that it must just be a new type of anxiety attack.
So many people have been saying things on this thread that are similar to what I 'm experiencing that I actually feel a sense of relief. Like I'm
not alone. Either I'm crazy, I'm just having physical symptoms of some unknown ilness or whatever. A supernatural explaination is the only thing
that terrifies me.(I'm an athiest, so maybe that is part of it)
One thing that keeps coming to my mind is something I read a while back, about sleep paralysis. In this study, and I don't have a link at the moment,
it talks about how sleep paralysis might be linked to earthquake predictions, around the pacific rim, the west side of the us, all the way over to
hawaii. I think the study is still going on. But it is studying how there are waves of sleep paraysis reports befor earthquakes in and around the
pacific ocean. I've lived on the west coast all my life.
So I'm thinking, maybe I'm(and others) are just somehow sensitive to ....whatever...and the symptoms I experience are all a part of that.
I have a ton more to write, but I'm going to go do some Billy gram and gary coleman research right now---that's just too wierd.