posted on Jul, 7 2008 @ 11:10 PM
WOW. This is so amazing to me. I have been feeling very similar to these people.
Everything started four nights ago. I went to lay down at around 11:00 like I always do. But as soon as I laid down I was completely overcome by fear.
I started crying and soon felt like I was going to vomit. I didn't sleep at all that night. My boyfriend later told me I was having a panic attack.
I'm 23 (today is my birthday) and I've never had a panic attack. Not only that, but before the first night of feeling that way, I never cared about
anything that was about science, or politics, or things that I didn't even understand right away. I was pretty much only concerned with things that
immediately concerned me and my family. I couldn't even pay attention when my boyfriend would talk about space and things like that. I failed US
History and Earth Space Science in high school because it was so boring to me that I couldn't pay attention to anything said in class. I figured I
was never going to space and history is over, so it had nothing to do with me. Even up till a week ago I was still telling my boyfriend I didn't care
about space, as space is one of his favorite subjects to talk about.
But in the past four days, everything changed.
The first night I felt this way, I was so afraid, but I had no idea what I was afraid of. I knew this feeling was crazy, because how could I be afraid
of nothing. But I couldn't bring myself to lay down. My boyfriend works at night, and I have two young children that were asleep, so I came out to
the computer. My computer is in the corner of the room. And as I sat here, I don't know why but I had this urge, but I started to look up things
about physics, starting with some really simple videos on youtube, that I guess were made for people like me who have no idea about the subject. From
there I was subject hopping from physics to space to economic collapse and global warming and somehow I ended up doing serious research about world
end scenarios. Which makes no sense, considering I didn't care about this for 22 years of my life. Now, I can't get enough of it. Needless to point
out probably, but that's how I ended up here.
While I was sitting in my computer chair, I kept feeling like I wasn't alone, and that something was behind me. I kept looking back, knowing that it
was crazy of me to do. I had cold sensations, and "wind sensations" that some others have described.
I'm still not sure about this-what I'm typing-but it's like someone or something wanted me to open my eyes to these things. I still can't explain
the sudden interest. I don't know what to make of it.
I still haven't been able to sleep at night. The main feeling that I get is that someone needs to stay awake while my kids are asleep, or mainly that
someone needs to be awake at all times. I'm assuming that whatever I'm afraid of is going to need quick action to escape? Or there's going to be
some kind of warning? I'll only sleep when my boyfriend comes home from work and promises he'll stay awake. I get this strange energy at night as
In the past four days, I've pretty much realized that I knew nothing. It's like everything I knew, was wrong, or has changed.
I guess I'm just hoping this thread will provide enough stories for some kind of answers.
I'm probably going to go register now.