posted on Jun, 26 2008 @ 01:03 PM
I'm new here to this site, and feel a bit of a fraud as Ive browsed the site for a few days and there seems to be so many people with so much
knowledge on here that seem to know what they're talking about, and to be honest, I've never been the sharpest knife in the drawer. But I know
there is something going on in my family for generations, something very dark, and I have been the only one who can see how bad it is, and my whole
life something has been pushing me to sort it out. Hence I have always found myself pushed in directions where I might find help, most of the time
without even looking, things appear by accident, like this site I stumbled across, so Im thinking maybe Ive been lead here as this is the place I will
find someone, who agrees with what Im saying, and acknowledges there is something dark at work and its not just my imagination.
I have to say this is hard for me, as Im not a drama queen or an attention seeker and I dont talk about my business to strangers, but just have an
overwhelming feeling I may find help here. I hope its not a mistake.
Just to briefly give a rough idea as its bad enough for me coming out with these things, I can see a thread of something dark that has touched every
family member as far back as I know of, and who knows maybe it goes back even further.
I lay out a few of the things; murder, the suspected murder of a child, incest, rape, drugs, alcohol, mental illness, suicide, attempted and carried
out, violence, certain family members being in fights resulting in them being stabbed, gun crime (I was held at gunpoint at the age of 5 for example),
thieves, burglers and a back street abortionists.
there has always been a history of family members being drawn towards the paranormal, there has also been separate incidents of negative spirit
activity, which goes in bursts, with years between each.
there are some dark people in my family, and I seem to be the one that has always been the focus of negativity from them.
On a spiritual level, I have had various incidences of negative spiritual energy, for instance, I used to wake in the night unable to move, pinned to
the bed, I have had dreams of the devil that have been a forerunner to something happening, the first was I dreamt my house was on fire, as I tried to
escape, the devil was in the kitchen, horns and all, and he grabbed me and said Your soul is mine, and I woke up, two days later, our house burnt down
to the ground, the fire investigators never came up with how it started.
Anyway thats a brief outline, and I hope Im in the right place and havent totally embaressed myself.
thanks a lot.