Before i go any farther, this isnt one of those "why did i do it threads" im very happily married, and i love my wife more than anything on this
i'll be straight and to the point:
1.) After being married for so long - i find myself taking advantage of her presence. Like right now - she's lying in bed next to me, while im on
the laptop. I should be rested up next to her, holding her in my arms, but im not.
2.) Desires for women in your past. Mind you - i NEVER
will cheat on my wife. But my point is that most married men can name one, or more,
women in their past that they "had a chance with" but for whatever reason (chickened out, friend walked in, etc) something didnt go through. Why do
we, as men, dwell on this? I love my wife and wouldnt trade her for anyone in the world.
3.) Having thoughts like the one above makes me feel so guilty. It makes me feel like i've cheated on my wife, but never laid a finger on anyone
else. I know my wife's undying love for me, she's proved it countless times. Women are so
strong in their emotions, despite what
stereotypists may claim. Want proof? My wife still worships the ground i walk on, despite any arguments from our past. She never holds it against
me, despite the numerous times i've been a royal prick.
4.) Setting here, in bed, i am able to realize in the stillness of the night, my overall fear for loosing my wife. Not that i believe there is a
reasonable chance of it happening, im just throwing the possibility out there. What would i do without her? I cant fall asleep at night unless
she's in the same bed....its strange.
5.) In her emotional strength, is she hiding any pain? Do i spend too much time on ATS pretending to know what im talking about?
Where do you draw that fine line that says "I really want to do this, but i also want to make her happy" when the thing that'll make her happy isnt
something you really want to do (like going to see 27 dresses)
Any other people have opinions on the real emotional aspects of married life? Not this typical "sex doesnt happen anymore" garbage
but - real - actual - occurances.
In many ways, we still act like we did when we first met. Cant stand to be away from each other, but find ourselves wanting privacy.
anyways, im done ramblin now.