Hi okay,
I'm really really freaked out right now.
Sorry for constand "enters" I'm writing this from
my phone and I want to see what's written.
Today I saw the worst movie (now I think)
ever with my girlfriend
it was paranormal activity and honestly
I wish I didn't watch it
I believe in that stuff, but not to the
extent of fear.
Anyway tonight I couldn't sleep
I was just scared #less.
I awoke o my dad humming really loudly
from his room, and this has never happened before
otherwise I wouldve woken up before too, I believe,
then at around 2am I felt, my damn cat,
my door was closed
I felt my cat kneading and purring, I was totally awake,
I felt a pitch, like the mosquito noose through my head
then I felt that scanning vibration thing, and i felt compeltely pinioned
#
my doors closed how the f*** did my cat get in?
I had to see so I struggled managed to turn my head to see no cat no open door
thank god.
Edit. As soon as I awoke to the cat and realized by god the door is closed how is he on here, I began to feel the vibration after that realization
Oh.
I believe in god. I do, Christ and the holy spirit
but I've never prayed a lot, or gone to church that much
i wanted to, but I felt guilty, becase i think if I start now
I believe god will think I'm only doing it so I can pray
for help later. And I don't want that so I just don't .
I say this... I think it's a short protection prayer in Russian
that my
mom made me say
#
I also don't meditate
so none of that projection stuff , I have no understaning of it
Anyway. I once again awoke to a vibrating scanning feeling
I'm just freaking out because of that stupid movie
and i googled that feeling expecting to find nothing
but then I read all four pages. Which just freaked me out more
with the presence of other people.
Oh I thought the vibrations was something going through me
and then before stumbling to this site
I thought maybe god accepts me. And I shouldn't fear what I mentioned above
Sigh
I want to sleep but I'm afraid
[edit on 11-10-2009 by Drpolio]