posted on Nov, 28 2009 @ 05:03 AM
My most amazing experience was in my early twenties, when I went in for a massage to help with my back pain. I'd never had a massage before, but the
pain down my legs finally convinced me to try.
In the middle of the treatment I had an encounter with "beings of light", who not only healed my sciatic nerve pain (never been back for a single
minute in 14 years), but changed the way I experience life forever. As I lay there, experiencing profound relaxation, I began to see the outlines of
humanoid figures surrounding me on all sides. They were clearly defined; their outlines were drawn in light. As they came closer, they became just
balls of light, white with a golden hue. Four of them then appeared above my chest. They were spaced apart like at the 12/3/6/9 positions on a
clock. They began to spin in a circle, faster and faster, and they generated a light in the center. Suddenly, they shot a beam of light into my
chest, and I was overwhelmed with the most intense feelings of love and connectedness... beyond anything I could have imagined possible. For a
moment, I was one with God.
I felt as if, I was remembering who I was, why I was here in this life, for what purpose. Tears flowed down my face as I shuddered in the deepest
sobs I think I've ever cried. It was beautiful, Humbling. Loving. Healing. Incredible... all that good stuff. I was filled to overflowing with
feelings of love, compassion, forgeveness, etc...
For days, I walked around in a daze. My life had been turned upside down and inside out. Nothing was the same any more. All context, all sense of
'why' that I ever had formulated, all my thoughts about pretty much everything, were shaken and numb. It was incredible, but it was also a bit
unnerving. As wonderful as it was to feel that light and that love, here I was back on earth, and now I didn't know what to do with myself.
That experience has shaped everything I have done ever since. It is the north star of my walk through this life, and I will forever be striving to be
worthy of it - to share that light with other people. The light communicated to me, that life can be so much better than it is now. That light, is
what we are. All of us. And nothing can ever alter that.
This is ultimately why I decided to go back to school for acupuncture, so that I might have a job involving healing, that gave me a chance to work
with that light, and help other people to find it in themselves.
Several years went by before I made the decision to try this new career. I became a dedicated seeker of understanding, which took me to ashrams and
sweat lodges and other interesting places. It opened the door to other strange had wonderful encounters with spirit that I seldom talk about - it's
simply too outrageous for most people to even entertain.
Perhaps tomorrow I'll tell one of those other stories.... maybe the one about the full apparition of a redneck I saw in the woods? Or perhaps the
time I saw the spirit of a broccoli plant, and what it 'said' to me about our relationship with what we eat?
Haven't told this story in a while. I haven't been feeling lately like I'm living up to the gift that was given to me. I'm still full of bad
habits, and keep wishing 'they' picked somebody else, frankly. I'm hiding in the belly of a whale, I suppose.
People might not understand that in many ways, this stuff makes your life more difficult. I went from tooling around in bookstores and playing
computer games, to suddenly trying to fulfill a cosmic destiny of some kind. It's hard. It makes me constantly confront my limitations. Inside,
it is a state of war, to conquer all my darkness with that light.
Sometimes, I wonder if it ever happened. Other times, the feeling revisits me, and for a moment, I relive it. And then it's gone, and I get
I'm glad this thread and this forum are here. It feels good to have other open minds to share with.