reply to post by MurderCityDevil
vive le difference eh.
well, this is a long time ago my story mind, and in the UK, but i started school when I was 5. before I started, I had nightmares, again and again
and again. much of what i experienced I have found to similar to others that went to school in that part of the world, which was london. sometimes
i still meet people from that generation and background, they can totally relate, we are like veterans - survivors - of a war.
so what I am saying is , that my experiences were the norm, rather than the exception. I did not really understand until later, but most of the
teachers, and especially the priest, were homosexual and pedophiles. the priest was a pedophile. in fact most of the priests were, perhaps all of
them. Ours would invite boys to his house (school owned) to play with trains. So would the teachers. the straight teachers who had families - in
you were just not safe. You were six, seven, eight, nine, or ten. you were just in a weird scenario with no way out. parents had no idea or if they
did, ignored it. the safest ones were the open homos, the "gay" effiminate ones, they normally left you alone.
the damage caused by all this was massive. you have no idea. the fear alone was enough to cause psychological shut down, one had to put up some
defense, it sure wasn't physical and no legal defense.
just before I left, the wife of the headmaster suicided, then the headmaster hung himself. they were in their late 30's.
I knew the previous head quite well. an elderly dude. I would often be punished for failing to eat the food. you waited outside his study in a dark
corridor with lights on it like traffic lights. turn to green, you open the heavy wood door. Inside, it was trousers down and an ass wopping, over
Man I was pleased to get out of that school in one piece! Others weren't as lucky as I. Sometimes the memories only come back around when you have
your own kids, they get to that age, and they trigger something in you, and you are then in a real frakin crisis you aren't even sure what your
memories are, are they real or is it just the fears working.
so sorry if I sound hateful or unenlightend, bitter. but... I am not the stoning type and I don't go looking to piss anyone off in life. Live and
let live is my motto. if they wanna get married, they're gonna get married. people are gonna express themselves and I'm no nazi. I'm not calling
it a sin from a pulpit and I'm not gonna waste any time on some crusade about it. know what I mean? But I gotta tell ya who want to hear what I
have to say, all this bull# about "loving gays" don't cut it with me. its just not my experience then, its just not my experience now. the
"will and grace" is the sugar coated side of the faeces that is the reality, its a mask, its like the strong perfume, the clothes, it is hiding
something....what?. they will take you to hell if you take that road. Homos and pedophilia is connected if you really want to face the truth and you
dig into the institutions and the churches and the boyscouts etc. and what comes after pedophilia, you know you end up doing that for a few decades
and get away with it, do you want to look that one in the face. you take a path in life one way or the other, life don't let you stay on the fence,
know what I mean? If as a guy you start fixating on the anus of other guys as your pleasure in life, and you match to the hormones and the
biochemistry of same sex, it is gonna take your mind somewhere. nothing "gay" about it sorry. and it aint love either. fear fear fear fear.