posted on Jun, 14 2008 @ 01:16 AM
Don't worry my friend, you are not alone. Some of your situation rings an old bell here too.
It was only after finding out last year that my sister had leukemia that I realised how little I had told her I Love her!
All I can say is that it is important to understand that some of your problems may be caused by a lack of trust towards people. Only you will know
what may have developed or caused that. (father)
Sometimes the "fear of rejection" as trexter pointed out, can be quite a powerful force that has a strong effect.
Deep down you may think it's "soft", or "silly", or "wrong" to say personal "stuff" whether it's to family or friends, and strangers are not
"blood" and often come and go.....anything you said to them leaves with them.
Also, for me anyway, the feeling of getting "me" right was a priority and the feeling of not wanting to burden others often closed me off....focus,
Just remember that he's your kid brother, he's blood, you can be a friend, teacher, protector and brother to him or just a grey shadow from the
corner of his eye.
Reality bites! .... bite it back!
Good way to stop feeling bad....give the love, say the words, speak your mind....dare yourself...shock others....never let anyone stop you from
revealing the truth and never be afraid to be wrong...that way you can't make mistakes and maybe end what seems to be a viscious circle. I think
you'll be surprised at how much easier things could get if they were more familiar in everyday life.
The mind is the greatest magician and can fool itself eh?
[edit on 14/6/2008 by nerbot]