posted on Sep, 5 2008 @ 02:04 AM
reply to post by 20 Eyes
Crystal clear, buddy. I don't think you need to go into it. My bass player and I, we vowed to separate ourselves from the scene as much as we
could... because man we've seen too much tragedy already, and the scene is dead yet it's still rising, and in the lead are a bunch of baffoons and
apparently a few MK stooges. I think the only reason they told me anything was because they thought they could confide in telling someone something no
one would believe.
My bassist is still struggling to understand what the heck is happening and why we can't get a gig together, but I feel like it has a lot do with our
refusal to play the stupid game, and everybody else's completely delusional brainwashed obsession with recognition, power, and wealth. We had this
one drummer approach us and was NUTS about playing with us, and we email him two weeks later after he doesn't answer any of our phone calls, and he
fires an email back basically saying "F you" for no damn reason! What is this crap? maybe two drummers in a row doing the exact same thing could be
chalked up as coincidence, but this has literally happened ten times at least in a row. We are making good music, and there's a big huge
consciousness behind what we're doing... and maybe that scares people a little. I don't hide behind a veil of acceptability. I say what's going on,
and if people are weirded out by it... I dunno what to tell them, but I'm confident the conspiracy runs so deep, it would deeply disturb anyone who
bothered to look and see it.
Kurt Cobain was one of those anomalies in pop culture.... he didn't seem to belong. He was too raw and honest... and it is no coincidence that those
types of people don't live too long. Hell, being an average joe, and just being raw and honest in your daily life... you risk either being shunned by
everyone, thrown in a mental institute, thrown out of your home, or thrown in jail.
I never got the whole tortured artist and hopeless thing from Kurt's music. Even though it may have sounded that way to most, it always gave me hope
and inspired me to hang on. There was a time when I was like 15 where I really wanted to die really bad, and Kurt's music helped me get through that
and overcome the sadness. Maybe it was just a sense of not feeling so alone, knowing that someone who you consider somewhat sane has felt similar to
you... or maybe it was like I said, the hidden meanings of the words, and subconsciously connecting with the pure creative energy that spawned them in