posted on Oct, 27 2009 @ 07:07 PM
I've had so many experiences with sleep paralysis, people would call me insane. I never really told people what I was experiencing, out of that
I had my first episode when I was about 13 or 14, and then when I moved into a new place when I was 16 I started experiencing it every night. I
counted an average of 3 - 5 times a night. Some nights I counted 9 times. I've never seen anyone claim to have experienced it as often or as extreme
as I have.
Many of my experiences were hallucinogenic. In many of my experiences, there was an entity. It presented itself to me in different ways, although I
think there was only one. In the beginning I had no idea what was going on. When it first started happening, I would describe the fear as fear unlike
anything else. Nothing else could ever put fear into you quite like this could. But after I learned about sleep paralysis and what it was, and after I
had experienced it so many times already, the fear went down. To think about it logically, what is there to be afraid of? When you realize you aren't
dying, and the fear that you would feel if you knew you were going to die, would that not be worse? It should be. I started to feel like this entity
was putting a sort of artificial fear into me. I felt like it was just trying to scare me, when realistically there was nothing to be afraid of,
except the entity itself, I guess, but if all it could do was put this fear into me, then I shouldn't really be worried about it actually killing
me.. I rationed that I came out of it many times before, and I will again.
I also felt like this entity was pissed right off at me for something, and that's why it was trying to scare me. I've had many episodes where there
is someone about two inches away from my face and just screaming insults at me and swearing at me for "what I did", or "what I'm doing", although
I could never figure out what it was that I was doing wrong. If I were religious, I would have blamed it on that, but I've always considered myself
to be an Atheist. I still have no idea what it possibly could have been that I was doing that the entity didn't like. I thought there should be no
reason for the attacks..
My scariest episode was one day when I was sleeping, my young cousin came into my room, and it seemed like as soon as she opened the door, it started.
She came into the room, got something, and when she went to leave, she opened the door to the entity. He was just standing there. He was dressed in a
white cloak, like the grim reaper one, only white, and tied at the waist with a rope. (Originally I thought to describe it as a KKK robe, but as a
white grim reaper describes it better.) His head was completely covered, except for his eyes, which were completely black and dark, like holes. When I
looked into his eyes, I could not look away. I remember him sort of "telling" me that it didn't matter what he looked like. He told me that I would
know everything I needed to know when the time came, and that I should not be doing what I was doing.
But anyways, apart from the sleep paralysis, I also had a lot of OBE's that came out of it, and strange dreams which I believe are called false
awakenings, where I would wake up, go about my morning business, and then go to school, look at the clock, and wake up again, for real the second
time. After I kind of lost the fear that I originally had, the entity seemed to take a different approach. It started to happen less and less
frequently. I've had dreams in which I was allowed to speak to this entity and ask him anything I want, in a completely pitch black room. I don't
remember the dreams very well, but I remember being "told" things, and not really learning anything new, because I learned that ultimately it
didn't really matter to me, and coming to the same conclusion that I will know what I need to know, when I need to know it. That is a real
realization. That's why I believe it to be a true phenomenon.
I very rarely get sleep paralysis anymore.