posted on May, 11 2003 @ 09:55 PM
i'm 18 years old, born as a christian and well, yeah... i've experienced this "incubus" stuff 3 times or maybe even more now... the first was when
i first heard about other ppls experiences of it and i started to build a fear of it, that was about 4 yrs ago. but yeah, anyways, the first time it
had happened, i felt like only a few seconds of it putting pressure on me... i tried to scream, wake my sister, who was sleeping rite next to me, i
tried to move my fingers or toes and at the same time i prayed... and when i had finally said for God to protect me, i felt it go right thru me and
got up and grabbed my bible, holding it tight against my chest i finally fell asleep after a quick prayer or protection and comfort. that same nite i
dreamt (or so I thought) that another came back to me or possible the same one, and saw a tall dark image coming towards me and i didn't want it to
come near me so i threw my bible to it and as soon as my bible landed on the ground, the thing came on top of me again but it was less than a
second... i woke up the next morning, and saw my bible next to the door of the floor. it really freaked me out. i told my parents about it and they
said that i let them see my fear.... they knew i was scared and that i was weak so they took the oppurtunity to do what they intended....
the second time it happened was about two years later... i was 16 and in lust... the same week that our youth was going on a camp retreat, i did not
go because my dumb ex-bf did not want me to go. my sisters were all going to pay for me to go but i said no. that same nite, i went to bed around 2,
after talking to my ex, boyfriend at the time, he was telling me about his dead father coming to talk to him and saying rude comments about anyone who
was talking badly of his family in their house... i was scared because of "ghost" or spirit walking around in the living and trying to contact
anyone they can.... and again, i saw a figure coming towards me... and then, it got on top and put pressure on me.... i was so scared after that, i
turned the light on and grabbed my bible and started to read i.. I had not touched it for so long... and thought to myself. i did not put God as #1 in
my life... i had placed my bf in front of everything that had meaning in my life, even before my family. Why would God bring me comfort, i thought to
myself... i asked for forgiveness and immediately started reading some things.... revelation... it was very interesting and i was really scared, but
there were bits of it that i did not understand. the next night, my sister and i decided to sleep in the livingroom, and well, instead of seeing a
tall dark figure, i saw a bright figure against our old off white wall... to this day, i keep telling myself that maybe my head is just playing
tricks on me... i'm not sure what the meaning of this was. a few days after this incident, we broke of our relationship.
the third time.. i did not think that i would have to experience incubus anymore. i was growing spritually and not only that, i had more faith than i
did before in my entire life. i had read all of the Left Behind Series up to book 10 and felt i had a better understanding of it more than i did
almost a year ago..
my brothers were up and they were talking about the experiences their friends had had, they were saying that whether you lay on your back or your
side, it will still be able to put pressure on you and do what it would if you were normally laying on you back... about two weeks ago, it had
happened to my cousin, who was into crank and stuff and recently quit, five times the same night. she told my older sister about it, and then, a week
after that it happened to my sister. then, it happened to me. I was laying towards the wall when i started to feel the weird presence i felt before
when it first happened... i turned to face the opposite direction and layed on my side. i kept telling to myself for more than ten times that there
was nothing there, praying hard that my God push this presence away from me... then it happened... this time, it seemed like forever, also with so
much more pressure than before, and expecially on my heart the most. I was trying to call out my sisters name, but not a word came out of my mouth. i
tried moving any part of my body that i could, but i could not. i said a prayer for God to protect me, for his son's blood to help me breath.... then
it sunk rite thru me again, but very slowly though. i woke up the instance it left my body and got my little sister to sleep next to me in bed...
ever since that nite i haven't really been able to go to bed without keeping a nite lite on and some music on to drown out the footsteps i keep
hearing every once in awhile walking to my room to the livingroom. before i went to bed that nite, i was reading a book about having a relationship
with God.... it was saying this and that about it and i began to doubt that there is even a God. i guess that nite, had been a test of my faith for
him. I felt terrible inside because i had doubt and did not believe. BUt God is an awesome God, as well as a forgiving God.
i just wanted to share my experience. i am still building my faith in him and i am not sure if i will totally be able to hold it all in and push off
this kind of evil spirit away from me, but i know that these experience, even if it scared the crap out of me all the time, i still believe. yeah.