what is the antithesis of a wicca apart from a demon?
There is none. In Wicca there is no demon figures, we don't believe in all Evil/all Good deities, that concept doesn't even make any sense, you
don't have that concept in nature itself. In Wicca, we believe that a Dinamic Polarity is needed in order for the Universe to operate. Polarities
like Light/Dark or Life/Death are dinamic by themselves. Evil/Good is subjective and human concepts, they aren't present in Nature.
For example, a fire in a forest is evil. Or... is it? Ashes help the soil to get nutrients and seeds germinate quicker that way. The fire also clears
the way to new plants to grow. It's a matter of prespective and it's "evilness" it's a human prespective.
Works the same way with the God/dess, they both have Light/Dark aspects, depending on the time of the year. The God of Light, isn't a God of
"Good", it's just a God of the Light time of the year - the Warm part of the agricultural cycle. The God of Dark isn't "Evil" or the "Devil",
it's the God of the cold part of the year. Same thing with the Goddess, the Dark Goddess is the one that carries the souls to summerland, she's the
Crone, wise and cunning. She's Death but also Healing. The White Goddess, is Rebirth and Fertility, rulling the Light time of the year.
What I mean by that is, from what I have read thus far to become a Wicca you need to go through an initiation which is all very well, however you have
to answer to the God and/or Goddess.
This is incorrect. In traditional wicca, you need to be iniciated and keep a oath of secrecy, that doesn't apply to wiccans in general. Due to the
fact that Wicca is a growing religion and the modern demands of the wiccan/pagan community, the amount of solitary practitioners is way higher than
the ones that work within a coven. Does this mean that all the solitary practitioners aren't Wiccan because they aren't iniciated? No, it means that
they just can't find a group to work with, they might have found it and didn't get accepted or they just don't like to work in a coven. Some might
be self-iniciated, others don't find that that's all that important. Coven iniciation and self-iniciation may not be equal at outsiders eyes but
it's the iniciated feeling/sensations that really matters.
And again, no. You don't have to answer to a God/dess. You can answer only to a God or, like in Dianic traditions, a Goddess only. You can even
worship no Gods at all, like people I know that can't find any deities to connect with, some work only with elemental forces, like Earth, Air, Fire
What if you don't want to answer to them? What if you wish to answer to the Devil/Source? What would that make you? Just a demon?
If you don't want to answer to any God/dess, you don't. It's that simple. Since there are no demons in wicca... that wouldn't make you anything,
really... but certainly wouldn't make you a wiccan either.
If so how would one initiate yourself ? Do you do the Wiccan Initiation, answering to God/Goddess but just practice Dark Magic and the Dark Arts ?
Does THAT make you a demon?
You should dedicate yourself before you decide to go for initiation. Self-dedicate yourself, study for a year and a day - which allows you to
experience all the Sabbats of the Wheel of the Year and all the Fullmoon/New moon Esbats too - then if you really want/are ready and know it's the
right path for you, they you iniciate yourself and keep studying and practicing.
You can do an iniciation answering to your ancestors, to the Elements or to yourself.
No, that doen't make you a demon, just a very inexperienced person. Dark Magic/Arts don't make you anything. Magick is energy and energy is neutral.
Just like electricity, it can keep a life support machine running or it can electrecute you, you decide what your want your karma to be and what
result will come to you but if you choose to harm people, then wicca might not for you. Witchcraft on the other hand, might be your path and maybe you
should dwell on that. Seek other occult traditions, like cerimonimal magick, it might suit you better and you might find what you're really looking
How would you accomplish it with keeping you soul and humanity intact ?
Sorry, only your conscience and Karma "knows" and we all know that karma is a b...