posted on Jun, 7 2008 @ 12:47 AM
With regards to this topic, I do believe in ascension, have been for a while, but do I think I'm ready for it?
Not by a long shot, its not that I don't want to ascend, I know I'm not worthy of that yet.
I once felt I was ready though, I felt pure of negative emotions, very spiritual, very philosophical, I thought I was at my peak, but what I thought
was my greatest strength, turned out to be my biggest flaw. I thought I was at my "spiritual peak," I began to loathe myself, I felt I knew
everything so I no longer embarked myself on a quest for knowledge, I felt I was incorruptible so let myself venture into the real world without any
precaution and let me tell you I wasn't ready for it, that was such a big slap in the face..
The most ironic part was I kept tabs of all of my philosophical/spiritual revelations, and once spoke wrote about the illusion of perfection, when I
myself fell too it without knowing it.
I wrote to myself that: "no matter how ready you think you are, or how perfect you think you are, there is always something that you can improve
I guess I'm finally have to eat my own words. Haha..
(Read all, but if your lazy just read this paragraph):
But seriously can we ever truly say we are ready for ascension? Summing my personal experience, I would say no!! We haven't lived through our
lifetime yet, or even experience everything life have to offer, especially its hardship and tribulation. Only god can know when were truly ready, so
until someone gives us the green light to ascend, we should never stop improving ourselves....
So where do I stand now? I'm pretty much stuck at a fork road, I lost my way, but managed to find my way back. Yet, I haven't really anything to
push myself into a spiritual path, or embark back on the "right path" (there is no such thing as a right path, its all perceptual). While I still
retain my morals and spiritual oaths, I bent my words on several oaths I made to compensate of my current (bad) lifestyle and habits, I really
haven't made the effort to change it, and I think thats probably one of the worse thing a person can do.
p.s. its not bad as it sounds, some might find it normal, but for a guy who has been envelope in the notation of spirituality, its very hard on me.
And for some reason I feel really short on time, so I know I have to start soon.
[edit on 7-6-2008 by skyblueff0]