posted on Sep, 7 2008 @ 12:53 PM
I get the jolts. Common I know. Not in the middle of sleep, but shortly after going to sleep. They're pretty violent jolts. But that's ok .. I
realise it's common.
When in that state .. ten or so minutes after falling asleep I suppose .. I'll sometimes be jolted wide awake by a sound. So far, I've explained it
away by telling myself the sound is actually quite soft (a little click or creak for example) but somehow becomes magnified in my head so that it
sounds massively loud.
But the thing that's disturbed me the most only happened once. Again, probably means nothing much. I was drifting in and out of sleep I think, not
all that long after going to bed. 'Stuff' was going through my mind .. little dreams I suppose they were, mixed with bits of prayers and bits of
memories of earlier in the day. Then, very suddenly, the screen of my mind went totally black. Doesn't sound like much, I realise. Difficult to
describe. I think of it now as a momentary death. It was total. Total.
All the time, whether awake or asleep, 'stuff' fills our minds. It's what we're used to. It goes on in the background. We're not aware of it
most of the time. Well, the sudden shutdown of my mind erased every bit of that 'stuff'. It was as if a switch had closed me down completely ..
similar in a way to when I turn of my monitor/screen.
It only lasted a split second I guess. Then 'life and colour' returned to my mind in the form of thought, awareness. Can't describe it any better
than that. I lay there in shock. I'd never experienced such total nothingness ever before. Little preview of brain-death I think.
Just popped back to edit this and add that the closest to describing it would be to say that it was exactly as if someone 'turned me off ' ... in
the same way as we flick a switch and turn off a light, or a computer screen.
Then, after a second, I was 'turned on' again.
[edit on 7-9-2008 by Dock6]