posted on Jun, 1 2008 @ 08:08 AM
And I hate it. It has almost come to the point where it has ruined my life.
It's funny though, I'm going to let this be a large stream of consciousness post, but I'll keep it in order as best as I can.
Everyone has experienced synchronicity in one way or another. For the longest time, whenever such an event occurred I usually just shrugged it off.
The common one of "thinking about a song" and then it playing on the radio was never convincing to me.
About 6 months ago, I started experiencing many of these asynchronous events a day, I'd think about someone, see them, etc. I would normally just
shove it off, until it would happen 10-15 times a day. With different people, in different situations, in different places. All the time. It became
to the point where I would know where and who I would see.
I thought it was neat at first, it felt like I had acquired some precog foresight or something, and then everything went downhill after that.
I started actively trying to communicate with people telepathically. I have never had any actual evidence of information from my mind being sent to
someone elses, but I have had the most interesting of coincidences happen since that time.
As strange or unconvincing this might sound, I'm going to give it to you like I see it: Whenever I "swallow", whomever I am thinking about, or
trying to send a message, coughs. What???? It's not swallowing though, it feels like I'm swallowing, but I'm not. It's like theres a muscle
that I activate somewhere in my throat (I want to say part of the trachea).
That last paragraph is why my life has been a living hell for the past 6 months. I've been sitting here trying to convince myself it's all an
illusion, that what I'm seeing cannot possibly be true. I try and find the right person to explain this too, but I feel like I come off sounding
insane/schizo. I'm not.
I've been able to learn, indirectly, what I'm doing to people. I feel horrible because it feels like I'm making these poor people cough and cough
and I can't help it.
It's very easy to tell (for me), when someone is coughing because of an established metaphysical link (best way I can describe it) with myself, or
because they have something stuck in their throat etc. The pitch in their voice, the way they talk, etc gives it away.
The first time that I actively tried using this ability for my own benefits, or whatever you want to call it, the coughing telepathic powers, was at a
poker game. I got some insight into what physiologically is happening to people. One such example was I bluffed into a person, and just thought
"fold, fold fold, fold please fold", and I "activated" whatever muscle I talked about earlier. I heard what I thought sounded like a crack,
everyone at the table seemed to flinch at the same time, the guy folded his hand, and the person sitting next to me goes "man something just came out
my nose, don't know what the # it was."
At work: "There's this constant tickling in the back of my throat..." - said to me by an employee after I tried it around him.
At a party: "have you ever had that sensation of tickling in your nose?" - said to me after I had been talking to/flirting with/ESPing with a girl.
Needless to say I seemed to have established a strong connection with her as she didn't want me to leave her. Plus she was sober!
I have tons of these stories that I would be willing to share, as I feel whatever I have "discovered", must exist. I've tried convincing myself
for the past 6 months it doesn't. It would put my mind at rest, but every day I am re-affirmed at what I have discovered.
Does anyone else experience this? I wish someone else did, it's hard explaining this to people who do not understand.
thanks for reading.
[edit on 1-6-2008 by Jbalon]