posted on May, 25 2008 @ 05:04 AM
I have posted about this type of phenomenon before. I know that typically it is ignored, which is why it bothers me to post today. But this is
something I cannot avoid. This is something that will never leave me.
I have meditated heavily over the last year and there is a very obvious affect that occurs not when I meditate, but days after.
It starts with an extremely calm disposition. Its so random it is hard to say what mindset I am in.. But today.....
Today was something different. Typically, when I have these astral projections or OOBE's, whatever you want to call it, it happens once, and without
warning. This time, I was given MANY chances at it.
I laid calmly, watching TV, and I decided to meditate a bit to help me calm down. I was visited by a violent, yet natural kind of shaking (or
vibration) that I can't quite describe. Its like being shocked with 10,000 volts, except not painful. Every time I closed my eyes this would happen.
And I was "removed" from myself, in a very slow way.
I felt myself move down and to the left. My backyard is down and to the left. Without opening my eyes, I feel my feet touch grass, and I open my eyes
slowly. I can see the field behind the house slightly, but I can also see my room.. I am seeing 2 visions at once, it doesn't make sense. And it is
like having 50% control over each.
So over the next hour I "float" in and out of my physical body. Every time I open my eyes, it ruins what I am seeing, unless I do it very carefully.
My best image (and I did this well over 15 times over 2 hours), was when I was able to control myself enough to open my eyes and see perfectly what
was in front of me. I saw every tree, every blade of grass, but I had little control over my direction. I was floating with some control, but mostly I
was being dragged by something else.
Over the next hour, I dropped into different parts of my house, not for long at all, but I improved on my targets. It made no sense to me that I had
trouble opening my eyes, it was like being blind. If I tried too hard to open my eyes, I would open my physical eyes and have to start over.
The whole time I could feel myself in my bed. It was like controlling another body altogether, and it was SO hard to actually control with any
My question is, can I take more control over this state? Can I open my eyes and see what I need to see? Can I become totally aware of the scene
without having to focus on the fact that I am still somewhere else? It seems the more I try to take control, the more this beautiful sensation eludes
God this is all insane, but since I started meditation, these things have started happening and they are just as real as me being at work or going for
It would be great if someone could give me some life lessons. I am so confused and the more I try to control these things, the more they escape me.