6. Friends/Relatives behaving strangely, superiour as-if-having-secret.
Question: What "circles" or "social groups" did these friends belong to?
Relatives...Mormon. Yeah..I group up in that cult and was in many arguements during the teen years to cease my attendance. The arguement where I
said I didn't believe in god didn't go over well. Friends during high school was well...not many. One really good friend and several peripheral
pals. That changed when I went to junior college...I was introduced to a Renaissance Faire Guild in Harbor City (one of the members was living there)
and kind of got sucked up into that circle, though the primary individual was the now hypnotherapist. They were not really religious. The only overt
connection was Ren Faire.
Question: Can you remember how/where/when you first met one of these friends?
A group of them in Harbor City, I was brought over there by one of the high school 'peripheral pals'...red head chick. And there were like five or
six of the humans I would interact with off and on for the next three years, one of whom I still see on a fairly consistent basis.
Question: Did you have any friends/girlfriends that treated you as a sane, mature individual?
Plenty of people who treated me sane, even if at arms length. Fairly mature. My last girlfriend was an interesting situation. One comment she made
has stuck with me since she said it...we were returning from a party and one of the persons we were traveling with broke a glass (we as a group had
rented a stretch limo, lamest thing ever..
) and she was sitting next to him. She got really upset and started making really snappy comments at
him. When we finally reached our location, she got out of the vehicle and stormed away. When I caught up with her, she snapped at me, so I snapped
back. She then aoplogized and said she wasn't angry with me. I replied that I understood and that it was okay. She replied with, "It's never
okay to get angry at you."...
And everytime I think about it...I realize that there were only two or three times that she ever really expressed anger at me...and she would
apologize immediately after each one.
Question: Did most of your friends know each other or did some of them dissaprove of you seeing new friends or going to other places than they
I never really had a social circle beyond the 'current' circle. My best friend from high school vocally disapproved of my new group and there was
never really any oppurtunity to meet anyone that wasn't affiliated with whomever I was with at the time. New people always came into the group.
One of the things that upset me was the behaviour of my most recent ex. We would go out to her clubs and she would run into people she knew. Very
rarely would she introduce me to them of her own accord and several times it was if she was ignoring me on purpose. But she would always tell me that
she had no friends but myself and she seemed to be so dependant on me that we did everything together. We broke up when she started hanging out with
another guy and any question I asked was met with.."But I am just hanging out with my friends".
I don't want to turn this thread into my spilling out 'social problems' (though the very real intrusion directly effects a healthy social life
which begets a healthy individual) but there are some inconsistencies with how people have behaved. And it seems that more often than not, when I
question what's up, I am the one who is having the behavioural inconsistency.
Sorry...there is a bit of bitterness there.
Comment: "Handlers" apparently like doing this in order to Dissociate someone from the cozy and safe harbour of a HOME. In de-identifiying a subject
with anything and everything the subject becomes easier to implant.
I have done a little bit of research into the cult mentality....this is consistent with that.
12. Two friends climbing into window while girlfriend says "go back to sleep"
Comment: Bingo. If that happened to me I´d know Im being toyed with.
Try bringing it up and being given the "quizzical eye"...I believe rule number one in their/that world is, "Deny till death."
16. Waking up in different environments
Ummm...I think that you may be confusing this one. What I meant to say with the buzzsaw examples is that one of them happened in completely different
environments after a year or so had passed.
Question: Who the hell are these weirdos? You´ve been hanging with a strange crowd there
All from former engineers for TRW(I think) to a massage therapist to a now hypnotherapist...strange group indeed.
32. Subject possibly recognizes other MK victims
Comment: This was the purpose of the Britney Spears question.
I was wondering the relevance of that...
Question: Any strange occurences since starting this thread?
Nope, nothing out of my ordinary. I sit in front of a desk/computer 8-10 hours a day and then go home. Hang out with the roomate and watch TV/surf
Life is boring.
Comment: You dont have to tell them why. Or you google up a conspiracy-paranoid-doctor to help you.
20. Has not talked to other MK victims.
Comment: Might be helpful.
I will try this out.
Now for what I am kind of trepidatious about sharing...I 'hear voices' 24/7. It hasn't stopped for about a decade.
That is my biggest reason for suspecting an implant. It's also a weird thing to attempt to fit into this mess. Hearing voices implies that they are
real time and transmitted by real humans. But I have also theorized a computer generated loop.
The most often thing said is my RW name, the word "No" and the that I have to stop smoking (which I have pretty much done, save for a couple after I
I have been offered medication once for the 'ceasing' of the 'voices'...Resperdal...which made me feel horrible. I haven't really considered
taking any other prescribed medication, especially after what I have read and extrapolated regarding pharmaceutical companies...besides, alcohol (as
much as my liver and kidnies suffer from it) is an adequate (if not the best) remedy.
I would like to get your response to this before continuing further....again, if you look at my profile under the heading of what I don't
like....you'll see that I don't like listening to voices.