reply to post by Doodle19815
Welcome to my world of confusion and pain...
! Seriously though, I've been struggling with this for years, the sensitivity, the pain issues, the IBS,
how inconsistent it is, the panic attacks.....I'm in this thread to see if there is perhaps an external influence, however unlikely, that would affect
me.
I'm very psychically sensitive too, and can pick up on feelings, thoughts and emotions that other people wouldn't recognise if you hit them on the
head with it. I think I've always had this different kind of awareness, but I would say in the last year or two, it's got completely out of hand. Work
stress was a huge contributing factor, (I fixed that) but the physical symptoms are insane...almost constant joint pain that seems to move round my
body, and can sometimes seem to be referred pain from a sore hip. Ribs hurt like they've been squished out of place. Elbows and ankles are frequently
the worst. My skin is a nightmare. The slightest touch when I'm "turned up" is unbearable, and even the slightest touch will make me flinch. I also
have massive sensitivity to bright lights, loud noise, and confusing noise, like two sources of music, or two people talking at once. If I'm very
stressed, that alone will send me into a panic attack. Fibromyalgia is at the top of my list too, but I haven't mentioned it to my doctor yet, as I'm
aware that it's a diagnosis of exclusion, and I need to know there isn't something more serious going on.
On the plus side, my mum is a cardiac nurse with huge experience, I mean decades, so if I had any real heart issues, I'm sure she would spot
something. The symptoms I have are so inconsistent, I'm certain there is nothing too sinister going on, but what the source of the pain is, I just
haven't a clue. I don't drink, smoke, or do drugs, no prescription meds, I'm very careful about my diet, vegetarian, loads of veggies, not too much
dairy, no processed food, or very little, and I did have a huge improvement when I stopped eating lentils, and commercial bread...we make our own
spelt loaves at home now, and maybe get through one a week. My IBS has more or less gone, and most of the leg pain that went with it. Yup...it was so
bad the pain went right to my ankles some days.
Still I cannot put my finger on the source of my anxiety, and there does seem to be a lot of synchronicity here with place names and feelings we're
all having. Maybe the very fact that we are so physically sensitive to our environments makes us ideal earthquake sensors, if that's what we're
actually doing.
There is a great book by Elaine Aron called The Highly Sensitive Person....I ticked every box on her checklist, and her hypothesis
is that a percentage of us are simply wired differently, and pick up on and respond to stimuli differently from the rest of the population, which
makes us very useful, but also can make life intolerable for us until we learn to manage it. I'm sure there is a thread on ATS somewhere about it, so
I will try and dig it up for you. Again, if we're all hypersensitive here, maybe that's why we're getting the sensations about seismic stuff, and all
the emotional upheaval involved.
Perhaps this conversation is a lovely piece of synchronicity in itself...I'm worried sick about blood tests, and embarrassed myself and my boyfriend
infront of the lovely nurse by totally melting down, tears and hysteria and everything, over a piddley little blood test. Maybe your comment has given
me the reassurance I need that they will find nothing wrong, I'm just a bit more strange than I realised, and it's actually quite useful.
I hope you're feeling better today. And Laser...you too...sounds like you're having a tough time. If I can help at all, let me know.
Remember....nothing you want to say here will be seen as too weird...
Elaine Aron's websiteedit on 14-11-2012 by caitlinfae because: I added a link