posted on May, 15 2008 @ 06:17 PM
I went through a similar experience myself a while back and it has ended and basically what I am trying to let you know is that others CANNOT tell you
the truth my friend, I will reveal why, at the end of this.. Basically, it's like life itself is going on and sometimes you can feel the attacks all
day, and sometimes you are just feeling the after effects of them, and your dreams can go wild, but do this, ok.. Put on your thinking cap and realize
one thing, NO ONE knows you the way YOU do.. I say that because you can tell when things are going differently because only you know what is in
character and what is out of character for you, because you make your own personality, you are NOT born with one already made for you, and what these
people are trying to do is get you to believe that you yourself think you should be put away and that you'll do the actual steps(take actions that
would get you thrown in there or jail) by throwing these tests at you..Your friend that replied first to your thread was right, if you use this to
make yourself stronger, then no one can penetrate your thoughts and you;'ll be fine, but until you get to that point, and you will, you have to tough
it out and don't give in to any irrational thoughts..
Now, I said I'd reveal why your friends and family and all loved ones can answer you, but cannot help you and just hope you get it yourself, is
because THEY(no one yet knows who "THEY" are), but THEY, are always listening, and no matter what you do, no matter how many times you hint to
others that know you what's going on or that you're looking for help to get beyond this, or if they themselves believe it, they KNOW it's possible
and very probable, but they cannot help you because if they do, they themselves will have to deal with the same attacks,(people have also gone missing
because of the very same reason) which we have all at one time been through (if you're old enough, you know this to be true)and you'll find that
with patience and well, that vacation that your friend suggested, you'll find that things will return to normal and your reputation restored as long
as you chill out and wait for this to end..
Good Luck, it only took 18 months for mine to end, and we all have to go through it at one time or another, and although we'd all like to know
I hope your's is short..
Do yourself a favor like i did for myself, find a hobby that you like to do (besides this) and attach yourself to it and go crazy and you';ll find
that the time goes by quicker, some people just bury themselves in their work, but hey, to each his or her own..
Have a great day..