posted on May, 12 2008 @ 05:24 PM
Yeah, I guess I should consider myself lucky that I didn't get cheated on...as far as I know at least. I'm not even sure what was real anymore. I
should also consider myself lucky that she didn't wait a couple of years to pull this crap. She meant the world to me; I can't imagine how I would
have felt in another year. That's pretty terrible what happened to you, perfectenemy. You're right about the people that say "Oh, just find
another girl." It just doesn't work like that. Every time I look at a girl, all I do is compare her to the one that just dumped me.
It took me so damn long to find a girl that I was sure about, it feels like it's going to take years before I find another. The hardest part about
what I'm dealing with right now is the "cold turkey" effect. We shared so much...we always knew where each other were, what we were doing, what we
were thinking, and then one day, unexpectedly, I'm just completely cut off from her. I haven't spoken to her in almost two weeks now. I refuse to
call and beg for her back, because I know that will only hurt more, but going suddenly from sharing a world with her to not even speaking with her is
driving me mad. I guess I should be proud of my will power, really.
Sublime. I guess I agree with you, but I just find that sad. I always paid for dinner, drove everywhere, etc. I actually brought HER flowers at
work when I got a new job. But you know, I think I'm going to wind treating the next girl just as good...and the next one, until I find a girl who
will appreciate that.
Or I'll wind up a hardened shell of what I used to be...who knows?