reply to post by LiquidMirage
I felt this way when I was 19-23.
In a crowd, but alone. I always felt denied of happiness and TRUE love.
I wasn't a Christian. I felt like God hated me.
I overdosed a LOT, but, thank God, it didn't work!
Near death all the time, I had no solace of where I would end up(finding the right man was the least of my concerns at the time)
Selfish and shallow people were no help to me.
After watching a preacher on T.V. from Roswell(near Atlanta.)
I watched it, because I had a hangover and I couldn't find the remote to change it.
He said that being a good person wasn't enough for God to allow me into heaven. I was certainly trying to be good.
Well, as a feminist, I thought the Bible and God were all about enslaving women for men, but, I decided to pray that night. I asked God, "If you're
then I believe in your Son and that he died for me and rose the third day.
WHAM! I IMMEDIATELY was changed! I started crying, because I KNEW Jesus, who I had ignored was real!
I floated in a blissful fog for THREE days! Jesus has had me with him and hugged me when I was in pain or sorrow, for 15 years now!
I have been married for 12 (almost 13) years. I have three of the most beautiful children. I am fulfilled, not by people, but God who loves people.
Thank You Jeshua!
Psa 7:17 I will praise the LORD according to his righteousness: and will sing praise to the name of the LORD most high.
[edit on 6-5-2008 by Clearskies]