posted on Apr, 26 2008 @ 04:41 AM
I wasn't sure where to post this, or who to tell, but the only place i thought i could talk about this, was here to you guys/girls on the Above
To start off, My name is Josh, im 19, turning 20 in May. I graduated Year 12 in 2005 at Ballajura Community College.
My parents split up in 2003, which hit me and my brother really hard. I got over it sooner than my brother did, but still to this day, i still have
these "unknown" feelings.. I blame myself for the seperation, and i think that most of the stuff that they argued over, was my fault.
Once i graduated from school, things became worse. I lost contact with all my good mates. Years went by, working no-where jobs, mostly in the Retail
Things changed once again, when one nite, i went out with some guys from work, and i met up with a few guys that i graduated with.. I got there mobile
numbers,MSN,Myspace's and so on.. When i created "Myspace" i had people from back in school, adding me as their friend's, which was no problem. I
started talking to people from back in school, and they started blowing me off, talking sh*t, saying stuff that wasn't true and also making rude
comments, and i was like WTF?
A few months ago, i moved out of home and moved in with that guys from work. I knew a few of them from back in school and we get on really good.
I never used to go out clubbing, or to partys, but once i moved in with my mates from work, i changed bigtime. We started going out every Friday, Sat,
and Sunday nights, going all out, meeting girls, it was awsome... Untill my pay at work dropped. I do 38 Hours a week, and i get payed $310. What
makes this even worse, i went to the bank and took out a $13,000 loan.. This was the worst decision i have ever made. The loan repayments are $142 a
fortnight for 5 years, and i also have to pay $150 a fortnight for rent.. so thats a total of $292.
Back to Myspace, i was looking at all the Profiles of the people i went to school with, and i was shocked.. They have all been overseas, have nice
cars, they all have careers, or most of them no what they want to do with thier lifes..
I have no hobby's, the only things that im interested in, are the things we talk about here on the Above Network.. When i tell people about the
topics we talk about, there like hahah freak!..I have no idea what i want to do/be and im turning 20 and i feel old already lol...Sounds stupid, but
thats what i feel like..
I guess what im trying to say is, my life just sucks.. I have no money, im falling behind in rent and loan repayments, my GF split up with me becuase
she is running off with her best friend Chelsea to England for six months. They fly out in 2 days time..
I just dont know what to do... Im sorry if you feel that im just "another person coplaining about there problems" but i just had to get this off my
Thanks for reading